"I'm so sorry Kiyo"
He stared at me.
"You are the kind of a man who deserves a woman who is all in for you. I am genuinely sorry that I am not the right woman for you, Kiyo. I am really sorry"
Saying these words really breaks my heart. I wanted this to end without crying but I just can't help it.
"I feel lucky to have gotten to know you so well and I’m thankful we were able to be in each other’s lives, but I'm so sorry, Kiyo. You can curse me all you want, hurt me. I'll accept it all"
He grabbed me closer and hugged me. You're so mean, Rana. How can you hurt someone like him?
"You feel so far away from me these days. I know that I’m losing you and I can’t stay around to watch us slowly fall apart. We’ve both tried our hardest to make it work, but now it’s time to say goodbye."
"I love you so much, Rana and even if we end up this way I still want you to be happy."
"Asher!"
He looked back.
"Rana?"
I ran toward him and hugged him so tight. I don't care about the people staring at us.
"I'm sorry if I just realized it now. I like you, Asher, no, I love you!"
I can feel my heart beating as if it's going to explode anytime soon.
"Rana"
Niyakap ko siya ng napakahigpit. He's leaving.
"Am I too late?"
He hugged me back. "No"
"But I need to go, Rana"
Binitawan ko siya at naka ngiti akong humarap sa kanya.
"I'll wait for you, just like how you waited for me."
He held my cheeks. "It's really nice to hear you saying you love me. I have been waiting for this moment"
"I'm so sorry, Asher."
"No, you don't need to. I'll come back for you, I promise"
After 5 years
"Rana!"
I smiled as soon as I saw her.
"Stop running, buntis!"
Penelope is 8 months pregnant with her first child. She married Trevor last year. I'm so happy for her.
"Hulaan ko nag away na naman kayo ni Trevor dahil hindi ka niya binili ng pagkain na gusto mo?"
Naka nguso itong tumango. Hindi ko maiwasan na hindi matawa.
"Ikaw talaga! He cared for you kaya ayaw ka niya kumain ng mga unhealthy foods, okay?"
"How about you? When will you stop waiting for someone who has no intention of coming back to you? He ghosted you"
I smiled. "What do you want to eat? I'll cook it for you"
"Stop changing the topic, Rana"
"What can I do? I'll just keep waiting for him"
After we parted that day. He never texted or called me. I keep waiting for him and I didn't realize it's already been 5 years since he left.
And I'm getting really tired of waiting.
"Nandyan ba si Penelope?"
I received a call from Trevor. Gabi na din kasi at ayaw pa umuwi ni Penelope sa kanila.
"She's here. You don't need to worry"
"I'm really sorry, Rana. She's really hard headed"
I chuckled. "It's okay."
"I'll pick her up, tomorrow"
Maagang sinundo ni Trevor si Penelope. Nagmamatigas pa din nga si Penelope, pero wala din itong nagawa kung hindi ang sumama.
I have my own house now. Kuya Liam has a family now and I decided to move out of our house.
Living alone is not sad.
Nag grocery na lang ako dahil wala din naman akong gagawin ngayon. Naubos na din ni Penelope ang stock ko sa bahay dahil halos araw araw siyang pumupunta.
"Sanitary napkins, cereals, oatmeals, fresh milk, strawberries, beef, canned goods, noodles, detergent, shampoo, toothpaste, beef. Oh! Flour pa pala" I whisper to myself.
I push my cart, dahil sa pinaka dulo pa ang flour.
Pagkatapos ko saka ko lang narealize kung gaano kadami ang pinamili ko. It looks like I'm going to build a sari sari store.
"Ma'am tulungan ko na po kayo"
Ngumiti ako "Salamat po"
Sinamahan nila akong ipasok sa sasakyan ang mga pinamili ko dahil kung ako lang ay hindi ko naman mabubuhat lahat.
"Thank you!"
Papasok na sana ako ng sasakyan when someone suddenly grab my hand so I can't help but to scream dahil nagulat ako.
"Asher?" I whisper softly.
He smiled. "It's been a while, Rana"
He pulled me closer and gave me a warm hug.
The hug that I long for.
His smell that I kept looking for.
"Ghad. I miss you so much, Rana."
"I'm sorry if I came back too late"
Itinulak ko siya palayo sa akin. "Ang mean mo! you should have texted me, or call me. Hindi ko alam kung may hihintay pa ba ako, Asher!"
"I'm sorry. I'll explain it to you"
"I hate you!"
I cried.
BINABASA MO ANG
Dear Future Boyfriend
RomanceRana Kamila Jadelania is a 4th year college student. She's a hopeless romantic. No boyfriend since birth. This is all about her letter for her Future boyfriend.
