—studio
the other members were out doing something again. so promptly, that means doing a solo instagram live after ghosting international fans for 2 weeks. deserved to be honest. she messily set up the camera, making sure it looked remotely okay.
turning on the live, she looked as the viewer count jumped immensely. "aren't you all glad to see me?" she laughed, seeing everyone excited to talk to her again. she did basically abandon them unconditionally. getting one or two posts in it all. how fun right?
user1: MOM IS HOME 🤍
user2: I MISSED YOU MOM
user3: the doodles on your cast ;-;
"ahh, you see my cast? yeah, the girl's made it pretty for me because they thought it looked sad." she laughed, reading the chat without speaking much. she liked this, it was comforting seeing so many people eager to watch and speak to her. they all missed her and the feeling was mutual. "i saw something on twitter saying that they felt relaxed seeing me and mark's friendship because other idols would be scared to be so public on a completely normal friendship."
she nodded, wanting to see if anyone else knew of what she was talking about. "i'm really glad you guys enjoy our friendship. mark and i go way back, so we're kinda like.. two peas in a pod you know? he taught my english and here i am speaking fluently to you guys. it's nice to be open on a friendship like ours because then people can see we are just two idiots. or well one. i'm not an idiot." she laughed, seeing the chat roll in.
"it's kinda interesting. some idol friends of mine were scared when i mentioned our friendship on television. i was like, why are you scared? is being friends suddenly the next big scandal? i hope none of you all make a big deal out of me and mark being best friends." she hoped that it made sense to everyone listening in. she found it uncomfortable when people unconditionally 'shipped' idols because of their sick fantasies.
it's not like it was their business anyways. but she couldn't care, with how she's seen her own company handle things, she doubt she would have to deal with making a statement on something she's already addressed. maybe it was the fact she had seen the internet build and grow, it's not like how it was a few years back. mostly with the sudden uprising of small children discovering how to use it.
it'd make her shiver at the thought of being older than her own fans and her own members. she was considered the youngest just a few years ago.
user4: could you reintroduce yourself to new fans lolol
user5: you're so pretty unnie 😍
user6: sunny days or rainy days?
user7: can you stop posting your dog and post more of you on ig 😭😭
"reintroduce myself? do people really not know how i am?" she gasped putting a hand up to her mouth. seeing a landslide of yes in the chat. "really? oh my god. i've barely been gone guys you can't forget me already." she whined not liking the fact that newer fans don't even know who she is. i thought everyone would notice a sudden missing member when watching dance practices and whatnot versus recent media.
"let's see.. uhm.. hey.... everyone..." she waved awkwardly at the camera. "i'm miss S0UR, ko seokyu.. proud owner of the cutest dog in the world.. i hope he's the cutest. oh my god let me show you guys this photo of komu from today." she was already distracting herself with the thought of her dog. "i've been taking care of him a lot more and man do i love komu. he usually doesn't have anyone to play with him during the day so he's been so happy that i've been home. but he gets sad when he sees my cast." she pouted.
taking the polaroids out from her phone case, she showed the camera the photos of her dog. cooing and giggling at how cute he is. such a cute little good boy. "like how does he be so cute? i basically adopted the cutest dog in the world. i got him from a family friend that my parents know when he was just born and i regret nothing. can you believe they trusted a 20 year old with a dog?
user8: why werent you at the smtown concert today?
user9: did you see the girls perform at the live concert they were so pretty 🤤
"ah, i checked with my doctor and they told me that i shouldn't attend. i had already figured anyways." she spoke sadly. it had been her dream to attend the smtown live concerts ever since she saw the first one happen. and it sucks that she has to miss both of them in the year she finally got to debut.
"i did hear about it, and the girls seemed really happy to attend. i got really happy texts when they finished. i was really proud of them." she couldn't help but smile. it really made her happy when they were happy. especially with how excited they were for it. "i promise i'll make the one next year. i really don't want to sadden you all because of my disappearance." she knew she didn't need to apologize, but it was force of habit at this point that she just couldn't control properly.
her own guilty habit of over apologizing. she just couldn't help it. could you blame her? "did you guys see my precious baby jisung dance center? i'm so proud of him. i remember when he was shorter than me." she cooed in memory of the younger. "i remember when i saw him for the first time after a few years of nct dream being debuted, i actually screamed when i saw him. he was so tall? and his voice dropped? he's a real man now not a little boy with a strange haircut." wiping away her fake tears, she giggled and laughed.
reading at the chat freaking out over her discussing another nct member that wasn't mark. honestly, she was so open about knowing the entirety of sm that it was concerning when people acted like this was new information. "guys, i've been in the industry for like 11 years. i've been at the company since the sky window covers come on now. do you think i wouldn't know mark's better group member? please don't tell the dreamies i said that they'll kill me."
it was way too funny every time she had to address the 'don't tell them' part because she knew they would absolutely not kill her but still would mess with her because of unfair treatment of favouritism.
user10: is there something you wish to do once youre off your cast?
user11: MARRY ME 🤍
user12: can you say "hi bailey"?
"something i wish to do when i'm off my cast.. perform. perform is definitely a big one. i feel bored making song- making like baked goods. you can only make so much before you hear your members complain about diet. whatever that means." she barely caught herself to. knowing someone heard and someone screen recorded this. it was pretty obvious too. if they call her out in the chat, she perhaps should spoil a little. never hurt.
user13: SONGS? MAKING SONGS
user14: WHAT
user15: NAH YOU CANT GET AWAY WITH THAT
she held her hands up in defeat. "fine i admit. i've been producing songs. i have wayyy too many at this point. a few of them are mid. oh. did i just say mid... that's embarrassing." she sighed, realizing she let her normal vocabulary slip through and now she's gonna get herself trending on twitter again.
user16: MID HELP 💀💀
user17: this is why i bias you
user18: LEAK THE SONGS 🤬
"leak a song? i don't know if i'm allowed to.. this is called sunset skies." already having the music pages open, she placed it on the speakers. leaning back as it hummed through the room. she liked this one but it wasn't something to go on their next album due to already finished tracklist.
pausing it halfway at the marked chorus part, she applauded herself. "wow aren't i so talent and graceful and perfect and literally your dream girl? this is why everyone should be a sour patch kid." she boosted, unbothered by if it could be considered arrogant and entitled. because obviously a very clear and deep joke that she hoped her fans would understand.
"why bias anyone else if you can bias me? and junko has just texted me. you know you have free will to bias anyone, but i'd appreciate support." she laughed easily, pretending that nothing was wrong and no one should worry about what she said.
user19: youre bias wrecking me without you even being active in schedules?
user20: PROUD SOUR PATCH KID YALL 🙌
user21: I LOVE YOU
user22: WE NOT GONNA TALK ABOUT HOW HOT THAT SONG SOUNDS??
"moving on.. god.. i hope this is no one's first impression of me for the first time in weeks of me appearing.." she laughed, brushing a hand through her hair and pretending that nothing happened. she was so glad manager wasn't here. she would've been told off so quickly before she even started doing anything. smile the pain away.
posted; 24/08/22
