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24. Blue

Liz-

well this is it. This is truly it I am going to have to face my greatest fear for my husband and I am scared for him because he has to get vocal
surgery.

I know it's not going to go well for him like he's not going to take it well he cried on me all morning.

I don't even wanna imagine what you think but you just can't stay positive which is very very scary at times this as well because this is everything to him this is his dream job. This is everything that he wants in life and it is very very tough knowing that he is not going to probably.

I worked up and cry but I can't say I blame him. This is his everything this is his purpose in life. Everybody has their gym job is at Chris. It just happened to be it's just happened to be this you never really know what a person is going through until you're with them.

I think I've ever learned anything from marrying an idol is that people always assume things are perfect but I wish people could get to see the inside, but then again, I don't wanna see the inside of the house we're not it's very scary that people assume that we are OK when you're not OK and it really irritates me and pisses me off when people assume that because I married a K-pop idol life is all sunshine and roses was not a sunshine and roses it it's hard every day or sometimes.

I don't even wanna get out of bed, but I keep on going because you know we need to see improvement in the industry I mean I know Maddie's already working on stuff for Felix and Bri

She's already working on keeping lee know safe from trolls kairn she's still a firecracker to the end and me are struggling now with my health thank God for right now, but I'm struggling in terms of everything that's going on with Chris because it's taking a toll on my mental health like

I just want to be there for him and tell him it's gonna be OK when we don't know it's gonna be OK and it's very very tough. It's very hard because you don't think that it's happening to you until it's happening to you. I am very kind of think I'm responsible and I know I'm not responsible all the times I fight with Jp. I forgive him for poisoning me, but she's very callous.

I think for for him to do but it really really upset you because you weren't was the best for your people but you realize you're not gonna get with my three people so you just kind of sit down and you're crying about it but then you realize there's no reason to be quiet about anything when you can just be vocal about the situation with bothering you and I wish I had done it sooner,

but Maddie always assures me that my feelings are valid and that everything that

I am going through. It is OK at the moment Maddie says she knows they're a hard day but we just have to remain calm when things get ugly and that's exactly why Maddie is a hero for advocacy, but she told me advocacy like

I said advocating for Chris know soon after we got into the situation but I'm mad at JYP and every time I tell him what does is wrong or if he is wrong.

He denies it so it's it's very hard right now I'm just trying to remain positive but it's a struggle and I am fighting
but I gotta be strong for Chris and make everything Okay .