A immortal and a Widow (Natasha x reader)

Hello brother

2016 on earth prime X-4

Nat pov

"I love him, i will probably always love him. He was my husband"

"Even after what he just did?

"It was his natural instincts so yes, yo need to understand that Nat"

"But i don't"

"You will eventually, and if i say so it is because i'm always right" i let out a laugh with her weak laugh joining me.

"You were wrong before"

"About what?"

"That i don't like you, that i only tell myself i do for Wanda but i don't" she just look at me and i can't believe i'm actually admitting this.

"Tell me"

"I do like you, like like you and i hate myself for it because you're with Wanda. I've been trying to ignore my feelings for you but i can't, that's why i told myself that i don't like you, not the other way around."

"I didn't you were into girls like that Nat" i let out a nervous laugh. "Is that why you blew it off with Bruce?"

"Partly yes. He also called himself a monster and that he didn't deserve me. Which made me thinks what am i if he's the monster, the devil?"

"No, i'm the devil, you can be one my demons" she jokes it away. She's taking it better than i ever thought she would, maybe it's because she's dying or it's because... no, don't go down that line.

"I'm serious Y/n, i need you here more than anyone or anything in the world"

"I get that, but i'm not here for much longer"

"There must be something we can do"

"We don't have time Nat, the werewolf venom is spreading too fast"

"What's gonna happen to Wanda and the twins without you? You're their mother and her wife"

"You'll take my place in their life Natasha"

"I can't replace you"

"I'm not asking you to replace me, i'm asking you to take care of them. I know you'll do it because i'm asking you"

"I wish i'd meet you first"

"I know you do but you can't change the past, it's one of the few things you can't change"

"But he travelled in time, maybe so can we"

"No Natasha, you can't think like that, i love you okay, just in a different way....."

"I'll take care of them, i promise..."

2015 on earth prime X-14

Y/n pov

I can't believe my eyes as i stand on the other side of the road from the two super soldiers. I haven't seen them in forever, even though i've read about them and even seen the captain on the tv. When i got word that they were back i couldn't believe it, but there they are. I have no control over myself as i turn over the stress and jump up into the arms of my brother.

"James" i sign out in a breath and almost start to cry. He takes me off him for a part of a second, but as soon as he sees that it's me tears start to form in his eyes. Steve had gone a few steps before noticing me. I can tell how he prepared to fight before he saw Bucky's face. I take my eyes off my brother for a second to turn my face to him.

"Y/n? How are you here?" he asks suspiciously and i can't blame him. It's been 70 years since we last saw each other. And the last time i saw him in person was before i went out to find Bucky... and i never came back.

"We can talk about that later. As soon as i heard they had awoken you i jumped on the first plane here" i answer and it's actually the truth, i had been in Spain when i heard that a James Barnes and a Steve Rogers were fighting back in New York. And Steve had won. James lets me go and Steve pulls me into a hug, and i can't believe that the three of us are together again. We used to be inseparable.

"Cap, Metal arm, get your asses back to the tower now" i hear someone say in Steve's ear and he lets go of me to answer.

"Yeah, we'll be right there" he answers and gives me a smile as i go back to Bucky's amrs. One of the few places where i actually felt safe. The other is a place i'm pretty sure i'll never be in again.

"You're coming with us, i'm not letting you out of my sight again" Steve says and i don't argue. He thought i had died like Bucky. I hadn't told him i had gone, just left a note. He blames himself for that.

The short walk to the tower was filled with talk about memories and about the Avengers. There was Tony Stark, but i already know like everything about him. Thor who's an Asgardian, which reminds me that i think i know an Asgardian. Then there are two agents, Spiderman who is a teenager and then there is Wanda who apparently has powers which i personally think is pretty cool. At least i won't be the only freak with powers outside of strength and speed. The elevator ride was more quiet and as soon as we came into the living room everyone stares at me. Thor picks up his hammer, one of the agents picks up his gun, Wanda holds her hand ready to use her magic while Tony just stands and watches the scene unfold. I hide behind my brother even though i'm not scared, i have to act that way, no one can find out, not just yet anyways.

"Please don't, this is Y/n Barnes" Steve begins and they all freeze at my last name but don't put down their weapons.

"Since when are there two Barnes?" Tony asks and i can see that he still doesn't trust Bucky after what happened over a year ago. Not that I blame him, he has a good reason for it. And if he only knew the things i had done, he wouldn't like me either.

"She's my sister" Bucky says and they all stare in shock.

"JARVIS, could you get Nat up here please" Tony says to an AI who scares me when it answers. Wait, did he say Nat? No, it has to be someone else then who i'm thinking about. Women with the nickname Nat is pretty common. Natalie, Na...

"She has been notified" Bucky moves so that they can see me. So i just stand there while they apparently don't think i'm a threat anymore and put their weapons away. But just in reach so that they can use them quickly. I can feel how they all look at me, i still haven't spoken a word. My y/h/c falling down my head over my pale skin. Once it had been darker or even sunkissed. To the red in my eyes that have blackened since i haven't eaten in awhile. I had gone straight from the seven hour flight to my brother, and before that i didn't think about food because i was busy looking up how to get here in the first place. My first mistake.

"What now Tony?" i hear a female voice that i haven't heard in years, but still so reconizible. I turn my head towards the voice and am greeted with a shocked face with auburn hair and those emerald green eyes that used to look at me while i fell asleep in her arms. I couldn't believe my sight at the one person who knows me. It was her. "Y/n?" she asks with a smile sneaking up on her. I hadn't seen her in almost six years and was pretty sure that she thought i was dead... or just obliterated from existence.

"Natalia"

"I go by Natasha now" she says with a smile before we run into each other's embrace. I don't care who's watching right now, i just need her close. Everything just feels whole once more in my long life but it gets interrupted by Tony who clears his throat to get our attention and it works. The beating of her heart filles my ears and the pumping in her neck where my head is right now is too much but i don't care. But as soon as i meet her eyes again everything seemed to stand still and she was scared of what she saw. I see my own reflection in her eyes and i quickly turn my head away from everyone so no one can see the cracks fading under my eyes. I take a breath even though i don't need to as the cracks disappear and my eyes go back to a burgundy red.

"Well, not what i expected here but let's get to the good stuff, shall we?" Tony says, gesturing to a conference room. No one else says anything as we all just follow him into it. Even after what he saw, Natasha's hand is intertwined with mine.