One-Shot Collection: L Lawliet x Reader

✞ Kiss in the rain ✞

You and L attended the same university, and were in the same major, so you had several classes in common and spent a lot of time together. Somehow you had managed to convince him to be your friend, since he didn't talk to or hang out with literally anyone besides you, but you knew he was an interesting person and you liked his quirky personality.

To tell you the truth, you would have seen him as more than a friend if you hadn't already had a boyfriend since high school, who you didn't see as much as L but still loved enough not to break up with him. However, time passed and suddenly you were a year away from graduating from university, so if there was a time to start thinking about what you were going to do with your life, it was now.

You wanted what most girls wanted. To travel the world, get a good job, and be with a mature, intelligent man who could help you grow. But your relationship with your boyfriend felt stagnant as if you had lived the same story over and over again, with neither of you growing or the relationship progressing beyond the challenge of staying together after going to different schools. Besides, little by little, as much as you had fought against it, L had gained a special place in your heart, and lately you were thinking about confessing your feelings to him.

Maybe it wouldn't have been so hard to end such a long relationship if your boyfriend hadn't asked you to marry him one afternoon when you went to visit him at his apartment. He had decorated the room with roses and hired a string quartet to play when you walked in. It was a romantic gesture, but you felt nothing but anguish when you met him, and you could do nothing but turn him down while confessing that you didn't feel the way you used to.

Even though you hadn't had feelings for him for a while, you were at such a confused stage in your life that you were acting especially down and distracted, something that L noticed immediately, but didn't dare say anything until he realised that the days were passing and you were still acting the same way.

"What's wrong?" he asked you suddenly, as you both read a book in silence in the cafeteria.

"Uh?" You heard his voice, but you didn't know what he had said. "I'm sorry, I didn't hear you."

"That's what I'm talking about," he sighed. "Don't you enjoy my company anymore? You've been awfully quiet these days."

"No, of course I enjoy it," you hastened to clarify. "I just have a lot on my mind."

"Of course, graduation is coming up."

He tried to be sympathetic, as he was also pensive. He had strong feelings for you, and he didn't know what to do about it. He couldn't ask you to be his girlfriend and wait for him to return from his cases. Although he loved you, he wouldn't have time to spend with you, and he knew that, although for him any amount of time together was enough, you would probably want to be with him as much as possible, and unfortunately that was something he couldn't give you. He tried to avoid the thought at all costs, otherwise, he would get depressed. He couldn't imagine a single day when he wouldn't see you, let alone go back to the life he had before he met you. Too bad he couldn't put his secret identity aside, and he couldn't be selfish enough not to use his intelligence to help the world. You just weren't meant to be together.

"It's not just that," you murmured, raising your gaze to his. "Ryusaki, I broke up with my boyfriend."

He parted his lips in surprise, with trembling cheeks fighting the urge to crack a smile.

"I'm sorry" but of course, he wasn't. You didn't look sad, and so he couldn't feel sorry for what you were telling him. "What happened?"

"He wanted me to marry him, but my heart was elsewhere."

"I see," was all he could say, disappointed to understand that you meant with someone else.

"And since we don't have much more time together before graduation, I think there's something you should know," you took a big breath of air, taking the audacity to take his cold hands in yours. "I'm in love with you."

L opened his eyes in surprise. His heart was pounding against his chest, he wanted to cling to your hands and start laughing with joy, but instead, he could only remain silent, thoughtful.

"I know it doesn't matter much now," you continued, "because we won't see each other anymore, and I don't expect us to start dating and either of us to give up our dreams for the other. But I wanted you to know that."

"Thank you," he replied, "If things were different, this news would have been the highlight of my day.

"I know, and I hope we can still be friends. Just because you don't like me in the way I like you doesn't mean things have to be weird between us."

"No, don't get me wrong. I like you," your eyes sparkled, smiling back. "It's just... It's complicated."

"It is," you nodded, grabbing your things from the seat next to you to go home before it got any darker. "I have to go, but I'll see you tomorrow, okay?"

L said nothing, just watched you leave, listening to the sound of thunder cracking the earth as he knew that there went his only chance to be with the woman he loved.

He didn't want to put you in danger. Being with someone like him was almost a condemnation, he had seen it in Watari. You wouldn't be happy if you dated under the circumstances he lived under, and he wouldn't be happy if he had you at the expense of your own well-being. You were a strong and capable woman, he didn't want to stand in your way, he knew you would go far and he wanted to be there to watch.

But the sadness he felt was so great that he almost wanted to cry. He couldn't leave things like this, nor did he want to have to go to college the next day just to have an inevitably awkward moment with the person he cared about most in the world. So, he went after you, not caring about getting soaked by the rain or having to walk barefoot on the icy ground. He had to find you.

He managed to catch up with you just before you left the campus, holding your hand with your back turned at him, catching your attention, surprising you so much that you got distracted for a moment and the wind blew your umbrella away. The rain also soaked you quickly, but you hardly noticed it, you could only fix your eyes on L's, who stood motionless and crestfallen.

Suddenly, he grabbed your waist and pulled you roughly towards him, bringing his lips to yours in a long, passionate kiss that was trying hard never to end. He didn't want to pull away from you, but you both found it hard to breathe. You leaned your forehead against his, one hand on his neck pulling him to you, feeling his breath hitch against your lips.

"We can try," you suggested. "Whatever happens, we should at least try."

"I can't," he sighed, his breath brushing your lips. "It's more complicated than you think."

"You have been from the beginning, and that's exactly what made me fall in love with you," you said, caressing his cheeks as he closed his eyes. "Ryusaki, please."

You kissed him again, using your strawberry-flavoured lips to convince him to say yes, knowing that you were convincing him as he used his tongue to deepen the kiss.

"My name is Lawliet," he pulled away from you, looking you in the eye. "I had to use an alias because of the nature of my work."

"You really are a detective, aren't you?"

"I am, but I have a rather complicated reputation, and I can't stay anywhere for long. Being here for these four years was an exception."

"I understand, but Lawliet, I don't care about that. If you have to use an alias then I'll use one too, if no one has discovered you so far, I won't be the one to give away your identity," you stroked his damp hair. "If you have to travel somewhere I'll do my best to follow you, after all I don't want to stay in one place forever, I could go with you."

"But what about your dreams? You also want to become a detective."

"That's right, and you already have experience. Teach me. I could help you, or have my investigations on the side. Either way, how is being apart a better alternative?"

L hugged you against his body, kissing your forehead and your hair, relieved to hear you say those words. Now that he knew he wasn't the only one who thought that way, he knew that things between you could work out.

"I love you," he whispered in your ear before taking your hand and walking you home to dry off.