Internet Crush • Beomgyu

42 | jaegyu...

I just kept my eyes down, before I looked up at him again.
He was smiling ever so slightly, but I couldn't let myself mirror him. I was so scared, so worried, about what our future would look like.

"Get whatever you want off the menu, I don't mind." Beomgyu said, grinning as he looked down.

I looked down at the menu also, cringing at the price.

"Gyu- Beomgyu, you've already spent so much on booking the restaurant, I'm sure, and the menu itself is quite expensive..." I said slowly, as he just laughed.

"Don't worry about it, it's okay. I want it to be a good first date, okay? Now please, loosen up." Beomgyu asked, as I relaxed my shoulders.

"There. That's better." He said simply.

I placed the menu down, looking at him again.

It all felt rather surreal. The, Choi Beomgyu, whom I had befriended somehow through Yeonjun, asked me on a date.

The, Choi Beomgyu, wants to be with me.

The, Choi Beomgyu, probably only got close with Yeonjun because of me.

"I don't really know how much I want to be an idol." I started, one hand gripping the glass in front of me, the other wrapping around my body.

Beomgyu glanced up at me, placing the menu down as he titled his head, leaning forward.

"Like, of course it all seems like this big dream, and it would be really awesome, sure, but I think it's just because it's the only thing I can see myself doing. Like, I've fallen out of my passion for other things, since my parents got in an accident. My mums awake, but..." I stopped myself, biting my lip to keep back the tears that were, unsurprisingly, springing at me.

Beomgyu just sat there, listening to me.
He reached his hand forward, as I took it, he stroked the back of it gently.

"It's okay to cry. It's what makes us human. Your dads gonna get through this." Beomgyu said, as I nodded.

"I know, but I don't know what I'll do if he doesn't." I said, my voice cracking.
I laughed sadly. "Wow, all I've done is be miserable, whilst you've tried to create this perfect date and everything, I'm so sorry."

Beomgyu smiled. "You're alright, Y/N."

We chatted a little bit more, before the waiter came over, taking our orders.

"So, was Jaegyu a random name you came up with?" I asked, as I took a mouthful of my food as it appeared, feeling it almost melt in my mouth - the prices made sense now.

This time, it was Beomgyu's turn to be teary eyed.

"Jaegyu was my best friend when I was a trainee. We were meant to debut together, that was the plan. But, I didn't realise just how badly he was being treated." Beomgyu said, glancing down as his hair covered his eyes, his body trembling.

"He committed a month before my, before our, debut. And I didn't notice that anything was wrong. I've felt guilty ever since. But he left me all these voicemails, notes, letters, he left me everything. He didn't want me being sad, but I couldn't help it. My best friend just left me." Beomgyu laughed sadly, glancing up at me.

He was crying, a few tears rolling down his cheeks.

"He would've loved you. I can here him right now, teasing me and flirting with you... ah, you would've loved him to..."

I smiled back, holding Beomgyu's hand.

"I'm sure I would have. He sounds like an amazing guy, Beomgyu."

"Yeah, he is."