TW: death, sh, not eating, attempted suicide, exhaustion, shouting, swearing, dissociation, and more death
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Today was Papa Emeritus the 3rd's execution. He was dragged off stage three days ago and you haven't been allowed to see him. He is your husband and he has been constantly thinking about you in his room.
You woke up with a tear-stained face and usual and went to hug your husband, but he wasn't there. You cry again and then get out of bed. You hear a knocking on your door and ignore it. "Y/n come on you haven't eaten in days, or left your room, today is your last chance to say goodbye," Omega said from the other side. "Fuck off." You say and then go into your bathroom. You change into black clothes and then tie your hair up in a ponytail. You unlock your door and then go into the main room. You sit in the back and wait. The beheading isn't going to happen for another 4 hours but you don't care. You sit there and stare at the axe and the table. There is an indent for his head to lay.
You stare and stare and stare not looking at anything. More so remembering all of the memories. A few minutes later someone shakes your shoulder. You look up and notice that the room is filled. Ifrit is looking at you with a soft smile. "Don't fucking touch me, and dont smile like that." You say and shake off his hand. He sits down next to you and then you notice the time. 2 minutes. Two minutes later he is dragged onto the little stage. He doesn't have his Papa face paint on but he still looks beautiful as always. He looks starved and deathly and his face has a grey tint to it. You stand up and walk forward and feel a hand on your shoulder but you shrug it off. When you get to the front Alpha and Omega walk next to you and grab your shoulders but you try and shrug them off. Sister imperator walks in front of you and tells you you can't see him but you look at her and say, "You can't fucking tell me what to do when you're killing your own son." And slap her across the face. She moves to the side and you get out of Alpha and Omega's grip. You run to Terzo and he gets out of his grip and kneels on the front of the stage. "I love you." You say. "I love you too mia vita." He says and kisses you. He is dragged back and then you go and sit down.
He says his final words and before they kill him you blow him a kiss and walk out. You go back to your room and then sit on the bathroom floor. You cry, and cry and the tears don't stop. You start to feel icky every where and you need to get out of your skin or your going to explode. You grab your dress and claw it and then extend your claws and rip it off. It falls to the floor and then you start iching your skin. One hand has its claws out and the other doesn't and you rip through your skin. You start screaming at the pain but don't stop, you can't stop.
Alpha and Ifrit run inside your bathroom and see you with a bloody arm and tears streaming down your face to your chest area and soaking your bra. Ifrit grabs your arm but you swing at him and slash his face. He grabs your arm again and then pins you to the floor. He kneels on your arms and Alpha holds your legs down and their only option is to wait until you pass out. Once you pass out they release you and then grab a cloth. They hold it around your arm and then Ifrit goes and gets one for his face and then gets a first aid kit.
Your arm is shredded though and you need a proper doctor. They carry you through to your bedroom and cover you in a blanket and then Alpha carries you to the nurses place and Ifrit follows. He lays you on a bed and a doctor starts sewing you arm back together. You stay asleep until your arm is completely bandaged up and then slowly start to stir. Ifrit walks in with his face sewed together and you start crying. Your arm hurts so you don't attempt to move it. You apologise and soon enough you're allowed to go to your room.
You curl up in your blanket and fall asleep. The next day you stay locked in your room. You sit and stare and remember all of your memories together. You want to see him. You get up and grab a blade and then go to where his coffin is. There are some sisters in there but they leave when you arrive. You go up and see him. The lid of his coffin is off and you put your hand on his face. "I'm going to see you soon." You say and then kneeled down. You bring the blade down to your non-bandaged arm and then drag it across. Blood pours out, and you do it again and then again one last time until there are three horizontal lines pouring blood onto the floor.
Sodo is walking close to the room because it is on the way to the kitchen when he smells blood. He follows to scent and then sees you slumped on the floor while your bandaged hand loosely holds Terzo's. He runs over and screams your name when he sees the cuts. Alpha, Omega and ifrit hear his scream and run in. Alpha rips off his top and puts his down to your arm. The blood flows straight through so Omega does the same. They pick your up and run to the nurses office and then the nurse sews you together again. She gives you a blood drip and then waits until you wake up and so do the ghouls.
The next day you wake up really early and sneak back to your room. You lock the door and go and lay on your bed. When it is about 11 am you hear a knock on your door. "FUCK OFF." You scream and then turn over. "Please y/n you need to eat and drink something." Ifrit says. You ignore him. "If you don't open this door I will break it in." He said. You sigh and then get up and open the door. He walks in with a tray of food and you run into the bathroom and throw up at the sight of it. How the fuck your threw up you don't know but you throw up.
Eventually he agrees to just lay in bed with you. You cuddle up to his chest and cry, and cry, and cry. You cry until you have know more energy left. You fall into a peaceful never ending sleep. "Y/N." Ifrit shouts shaking you. He notices your chest isn't moving and sobs into your stomach. He wails loudly he knows there's no saving you. The other ghouls run in and see him and start crying also. They all lean next to your bed and cry on eachother.
The next day you are placed in the same coffin as Terzo for the funeral and you are buried in the Emeritus tomb. In hell, you meet Terzo and you both spend the rest of eternity together with all the other ghouls when they get sent back.
