brooklyn
i was being childish, that i knew.
but i couldn't bring myself to turn
the door handle and see you face to face.
so, i ran.
away from the door, away from you.
i wanted to talk to you,
and put everything between us at bay.
but that was so hard to do
when i had no idea where to start and
what i would say.
my mind thought one thing,
my heart felt another.
and when i was standing near you,
everything i thought i knew evaporated
into thin air, making me forget
what should be done.
so here i was,
desperately wanting to open and throw
my arms around your neck
but instead, hiding in fear of you
and my feelings for you, feelings
i shouldn't be having.
what i wanted was for us to be perfect,
to go back to being what we were
before- before everything fell apart in
my fingers, burning into ash.
we were far from perfect to the
point where we'd never be close to
being such.
i should have never spoken to you,
should've walked out of that shop
the moment you arrived to take my
order. i should've held my head high
and turned the other cheek; yet all
i did was break down the wall
and allow myself to become that once
weak girl who allowed someone to
clench her heart until it bled no more.
that weak girl who lost herself in another
and had to travel on her own to find herself agan.
i allowed myself to
allow you to smash me to pieces
and sweep me away
and i was terrified that i would allow
such heartache and pain to fill me once again.
YOU ARE READING
maybe, someday
Romance❝Perhaps we'll meet again when we're better for each other.❞ © tilmorning. The fourth and final installment, following the stories: 'something' , 'where we fell' , and 'intoxicated'.