landon
"i feel sorry for you,"
you said, not bothering
to fight back on the word
vomit seeping through your
teeth.
"it hurt to watch you leave,
you took me with you
and i never thought i was
going to be just okay."
i shifted my eyes
focusing above the top
of your head on the water;
wanting to meet anything
but your glossed eyes.
you used to turn your
cheek and bite your lips until
they bleed to keep you from
speaking your mind but now
you faced me head on;
challenging me to hear
you out.
"but i found myself,"
you continued,
"and you..."
i lowered my eyes to
look at you and noticed
a few tears upon your cheeks.
you opened your mouth to
continue but your voice
cracked.
you tried to maintain
your confidence but even i
could tell you lost it slightly,
doubting yourself as your
voice failed.
"you're still lost landon."
correction: i've always been lost
besides the time i was with
you, sheltered in our shitty apartment
on the outskirts of town, bundled on
our white cotton mattress.
i did take you away from yourself
but i always took away myself
because the day i saw your stuff
in boxes and our mattress out on
the street was the day i lost myself.
and as i watched you fade within
the darkness, i finally understood
the same ache in your chest
that you felt that night when
i showed up with pink stains
and cottonmouth.
you were walking away
just as i had done
except the difference between
then and now was the fact
i was running right after
you.
c :U
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maybe, someday
Romance❝Perhaps we'll meet again when we're better for each other.❞ © tilmorning. The fourth and final installment, following the stories: 'something' , 'where we fell' , and 'intoxicated'.