brooklyn
we were sitting inches apart
yet i could still feel warmth radiating
off of your clothed skin and onto my own.
our gazes were fixed on the ocean,
letting out mouths speak for ourselves
rather than the look amongst our eyes.
thirty minutes had gone by since
my feet mindlessly walked up the
ramp and onto the tower;
the same tower where i last saw you
with pink stains on your neck.
"what happened to us?"
you mumbled, more so to yourself
rather than questioning me.
i turned my head and looked at you
and you leaned your head back
creating a small thud to echo from
your head colliding with the wood.
"do you remember when we
were here?"
i bite my lip and shook my head.
oh, how many times i tried to forget
our times here.
always bad, never good.
"they weren't the best of times,"
i whispered.
"i should've been there for you,"
you said, extending your legs out in front
of you. your hands lay at your sides while
your head faced me, your eyes frozen
upon my face.
i opened my mouth to protest and say
you were, even though we both knew
that would be a lie but you stopped
me before i even got a word out.
"i should've been there,"
you repeated.
"you were busy with other things,"
i said nonchalantly, referring to your
sessions and shows.
"doesn't matter," you said with
a slightly chuckled in annoyance.
"you were in pain and i didn't see
it, i only made it worse."
"landon!"
you blinked and shook your head,
then stared up at the night sky.
"i cheated on you."
"i fucking hit you, i should have
never fucking touched you."
"i never deserved you."
my vision blurred due to the
tears welding in my sockets
and i didn't bother to force the
tears to keep from falling.
i did too much hiding with you.
you weren't worth it.
i wanted to speak,
even scream at you for everything.
i wanted you to know what was
going on in my mind but every time
i tried to talk you kept interrupting
but really, i didn't mind.
it's not like i knew where to begin
or what to even say.
so instead, i let the tears fall
and listen to you rant on and on
about how shit you thought you were.
"i don't know why i thought we
could give whatever this was a go,"
you said tearing your gaze away from
me.
"i don't even know why you're here,"
you bitterly laughed at yourself,
"you should hate me."
i laughed and your head snapped,
your eyes wide in confusion and irritation.
i continued to laugh then wiped my eyes,
shaking my head i let out a groan.
"that's the thing, landon,"
i said bitterly, "i should hate you,
but i don't."
YOU ARE READING
maybe, someday
Romance❝Perhaps we'll meet again when we're better for each other.❞ © tilmorning. The fourth and final installment, following the stories: 'something' , 'where we fell' , and 'intoxicated'.