Broken but Beautiful

Chapter 21. Breaking Apart

Broken But Beautiful
Chapter 21. Breaking Apart

"Gulf i am leaving fo Bangkok. Will be late. Keep the doors locked and dont go out". Gulf was preparing breakfast when he heard Mew at the door of the kitchen. He turned in surprise. Mew had not informed him till yesterday. He was all set to go.

"Breakfast Phi? Its ready". He came out of the kitchen to call him but Mew shook his head.

"No need. Am not hungry. Hey Rinny, Rikka, dada will be back at night okay. Be good girls. And Dada will bring toys for you. Dont bother papa hmmm? He had to take care of so many things okay"? He kissed their cheeks and pulled them in his strong arms. "No matter what. Dada loves you to the moon and back. Dont leave dada ever okay".

Gulf was stunned at his place. Mew never once said anything to the girls ever. The girls were happy in their Dada's arms unaware of the hell going to open. They were relaxed because they knew their dada would keep them safe from every storm. But Gulf. He could feel the storm brewing.

"Goodbye". Mew bid him bye and went out. Not even turning back, no forehead kiss, no hug. It was like Mew took away Gulf's peace of mind too. It wasnt the first time he had to go to bangkok but this time, he felt he would lose him.

'No its not like that. Phi Mew must be worried about his restaurants. He would come back to me. I am sure'. He was tapping his own heart as in consoling himself. He went to the kitchen to have his breakfast half heartidly. He didnt want to but he had to. For the living bean or beans inside him. His USG was still scheduled to find the number of babies. He fed Nattarine and Nattarika and let them play while he took his assignments.

Bright was out with Win to get some things he asked for anniversary decorations. But for now he couldnt get a hols on his thoughts.

'what did Phi Mew meant by no matter what he would always love the girls'? Another snake wriggled in his mind. He was scared. His thoughts were killing him. But then he would try to console himself by pushing out negative thoughts away.

'he didnt even bid me bye. I wont talk to him too'. He was sulking but he knew its all a facade. He knew as soon as he would see Mew, he would jump to his arms. Only if he wished too. His happy thoughts were like bubbles of water. Busting one by one.

'dont worry baby. I will make it with dada'. He was busy fighting his demons when he heard Nattarine calling him.

"Papa hungly". She pouted cutely.

"Ohh. Its too late. I am sorry loves". He hurrily picked them to their chairs in the kitchen while making food. He didnt notice it was almost lunch time and it would take more time to prepare some food. He gave snacks to girls to munch on while preparing lunch.

He was feeling low. He didnt have his milk or juice. He was missing Mew so much. His nagging his pampering. He would keep asking him to take juices or his favorite smoothes. For now he wanted to throw everything and cry out loud. But he knew better not to.

The day was a mess in itself. Bright and Win came back after lunch and decorated everything as Gulf instructed in the backyard. Now he was waiting for Mew and morning to celebrate the one year he spent in love with Mew. And to announce his pregnancy.

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Mew was free in the evening and now was surveying in the mall to buy things for girls and Gulf. His thoughts were a haywire. He was aimlessly walking here and there.

'Gulf is cheating on me'?
'But he was always loyal to me'.
'Why did he do that'?
'Why didnt he talk to me if something was bothering him'?
'Why am i not enough for anyone'?