TOXIC OBSESSION || JJK.

Hey....

Hi..how are u all doing?
I hope you all are okey.
So..umm..i can't really share this with anyone anywhere.
I'm sharing here because no one actually knows me and won't judge me.

So first about the next chapter,don't worry I'm writing it and there are some parts where i need to think before writing, this is the only reason why I'm not uploading it...i always get stuck in these particular parts in the end.

Aside from this, what i want to share is...about..me.
It's okey if no one read this. I know everyone suffers in their life. I actually am going somewhere..just for some work and i was planning to visit the temple to feel at ease for a bit.
As Indians know that we have to wear something traditional life suits etc. Can't really wear casual wears like lower and t shirts, which i normally wear whenever i go out.
We are financially unstable bcze my father passed away 10 years ago.

And i just...I'm feeling so..I'm overwhelmed after knowing that i don't really actually have anything to wear. I know girls always say this but I'm not really joking. And I'm the eldest one and don't have any brother who can earn yknow. I mean i can..but i completed highschool an year ago. I don't have any skill plus it's India..it's really hard for teenagers to get a job, specially in my area.
Everyone is conservative here, and the cities aren't really safe.

Knowing all of this.., I'm tearing up right now. I'm perfectly fine for not having clothes like i never burden my mom..i never ask for anything...when they buy their clothes, i don't ask them to buy for me too. But now that I'm going out..with my friend, I'm feeling low..it's like reality is slapping me in my face, i have so many responsibilities that only i can carry. I always stay in my room locked up to avoid everything. But i..i don't know what to do..and i know that no one can give my advices on this issue, i just wanted to let it all out.

Thankyou for your support, your comments make me feel calm and happy. Really i really appreciate you all.

Borahae.