Loving The Enemy ( America x Russia )

Chapter Ninteen ~ America

"You haven't been bothering me." I look up at him, stunned.

I thought all I did was bother people? Isn't that why they think I'm a child? What is he saying? Does he really mean it? Do I want him to mean it? Yes... I want him to mean what he says so bad.

I have trouble finind my words, "W-why the sudden... change of heart?" I look at him, searching for lies in his eyes, but I find nothing. All I see are pools of violet color.

Again, I can feel tears threatening to spill, I shut my eyes, dragging my hands to my face.

What is wrong with me? I want every one to see I'm not a child, that I can do stuff the same as they can! I keep telling myself, thats what I want, but how am I supposed to get it? How do I show everyone I can be an adult when I can't control my emotions or actions?

I wish I had some one I could make understand! But isn't he standing right in front of me? But haven't I always feared him? But what if he isn't scary? Ivan has shown me so much kindness while I've been here.

Yeah there have been some major bumps in the road, but wasn't I the one that caused all those bumps? I just don't know anymore! What do I do?

"Alfred... I ah... I wanted to tell you some ding..." The Russian's voice is soft, and I hear it right next to me.

Looking up, he isn't smiling for once. He is standing right in front of me, just a few inches taller, and he stares right at me.

"I... I'm sorry... I don't have company a lot... I don't talk to people... I know I scare people, but I try not to... I just... Don't know how to act around people... I suppose dat drives them away, but I really am lonely." He smiles slightly, and I can see what he says is true. But if that is true, then all I've ever thought and known about him was wrong.