DECEPTION

chp.31

Ai's POV

I entered my kitchen and placed my bag on the counter, I rubbed my face and let out a ragged sigh, my body felt heavy I didn't know how to feel about what happened. My emotions were all over the place I didn't know whether I should break everything in this house or just break down and cry, the last thing I heard him say continued to play in my head like a broken record. "that baby isn't mine." I'm still at shock, I couldn't believe he completely denied this child of ever being his, yes I may have cheated on him with another man but I know deep in my heart that this baby was his without a doubt.

The way he chased after her, trying to prove his love to her made me feel sick to my stomach, all those times he'd bash her name and treat her like complete garbage. What changed? Was it maybe her finally getting the courage to up and leave him make him realize that he did love her? Impossible, she's not all that great, not better than me... she isn't me.
I covered my hands with my face feeling a lump build up in my throat, I wanted to scream, scream because I felt betrayed, embarrassed and hurt! How could he allow her to put her hands on me, I should've fought back baby and all.

I removed my hands from my face and my eyes landed on my wine cabinet, I licked my bottom lip and walked over to it, I opened it and looked for the strongest bottle I had and took it out. I needed something to calm my nerves, I unscrew the bottle cap of my patron and chugged it from the bottle not caring what happens to what's growing inside me.

I never wanted this.

"Yo what the fuck are you doing?!" I jumped almost dropping the glass bottle, I turned around and there stood Dave in my kitchen, I didn't even hear him come in, am I intoxicated already? I rolled my eyes at him and took another sip just to be spiteful.

"What the fuck are you doing in my house?" I spat.

"OH!? Your house?" He asked smugly while crossing his arms and leaning on the kitchen door frame, i furrowed my brows at him.

"Yes , my fucking house."

"That's real funny, because last time I checked this is my house, your just living in it for free." He said with a smirk, I turned away from him and stayed quiet, he was right but I didn't want to give him that satisfaction of knowing that, I didn't want to fight.

"What do you want Dave." I asked softly.

"What I want is the truth... are you really pregnant?" He said, I scoffed after years of knowing me I can't believe he doesn't trust or believe me, I just shook my head, what's the point if I am he won't think it's his till after my pregnancy, hearing him disown this child so quickly hurt tremendously, I thought he loved me enough that he'd actually be excited to know that he'll have his first child by me and not Anura.
I cannot believe how quickly he denied me and this baby, as if what we had in the past meant nothing to him, and then I said the unthinkable.

"Does it matter? Either way I'm getting an abortion." After those words slipped out my mouth it went quiet between us, I'm not sure if it's the alcohol talking or if it's really me, but I refuse to bring a child into this world without a stable home. Dave finally spoke up after a minute of silence between us, the words that came out his mouth did something to me, I felt this sudden pain in my chest that I've never felt in a long time, was it my heart breaking?

"Good-" he said. "I'll send you the money for the abortion." I could feel my world crashing as I stood in that kitchen, I heard his footsteps he began walking away and the more quieter his steps got the more intense that feeling in my chest got. Dave left me standing in that kitchen with only my thoughts and those words, those awful words. I let go of the bottle placing it on the counter I could feel my legs began to weaken, I covered my mouth and slowly sunk down onto the floor and just let out the tears that were already forming in my eyes.