No Way Out | Teen Wolf & The Vampire Diaries

Chapter 21

When we get arrive at our empty house, the three of us stagger to our rooms, going our separate ways. Mourning alone.

I forgot to shut my blinds before I left to Lydia's, so I'm exposed to moonlight. Idiot. I'm forced to painfully transform into a snow leopard.

I can't cry, but I feel everything. I lie curled up on my bed, awake for the entire night as I wallow in grief, agony, and despair, my heart wrenched out of my chest.

I just can't believe it. My mum. She's gone.

Gone.

That's a word which is too permanent.

***

The next morning, I find a note on my desk. My hands trembling, I pick it up and open it.

19th March 2013

Nylah,

There is nothing that could be said that will make any of this okay. You are far too young to lose a parent. I am so sorry to be doing this to you... especially since you and Allison are out at a party right now instead of saying goodbye for the last time.

Nylah, you have to know that I had no choice but to do this. The police will be told that I've had a history of depression... but of course, that's not true. You have to maintain this story, anyway. The truth is that I was bitten by Derek Hale. Following the Code, Hunters must die if they've been bitten, so here we are...

It's not going to be easy for you or Allison. People are going to talk. It's important to me that you and Allison remain close, okay? Look out for each other, and for your dad. I love you all so much.

My girl, I'm so proud of you and all that you're accomplishing. Keep at it, alright? And please, never forget me. The only regrets I have are that I'm departing from my beautiful family and won't be able to see you and your sister grow up any more.

With all my love and a heavy heart, I'm saying goodbye.

Mum x

I choke back my sobs. "Damn you!!!" I yell, furious and anguished, picking up my pillow and hurling it at the wall, "Damn you and your fucking Code!!!"

What good has it ever done to anybody? Hunters like Kate and Gerard don't follow it, so why did my mum have to?? Why did she have to end her life because of it?? Because of some stupid prejudice against the supernatural? Please.

In knowing I'll never get to hear her funny laugh ever again, never get a goodnight from her ever again, never get an "I'm proud of you" when I do well in a test from her ever again, never see her happy as she dances with dad in the kitchen when they think no one's watching ever again, and never get to just see her ever again, I crumple to the floor, screaming and sobbing.

Allison traipses in, exhausted, and sits beside me on my bedroom floor. We hold each other as we cry.

***

At around six p.m., I'm burrowed under my covers, watching one of mum's favourite movies, Good Will Hunting (because clearly, I feel I need to cry even more), when Stiles calls me.

I pause the laptop and answer it. "Hi Stiles." Great, my voice is really raspy. My throat hurts so much.

"Nylah..." He sounds anxious. "We need you to come down to the police station, asap."

I fling the duvet off me, concerned. "Stiles, what's going on? You okay?"

I hear the unmistakeable click of a gun in the background. I would know, because I've been around guns for my whole life.