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❝Are you doing well?❞
A very simple question,
but hard to answer.
Melancholia is a collection of haiku that echoes the sentiments of the young generation today, who have silently fought hard lately in order to surviv...
Your eyes are pretty, but why do they look so sad even when smiling?
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A FRIEND OF mine asked me as our paths crossed again, ❝Are you happy now?❞ I was about to answer the question when they added, ❝Never mind. You don't have to answer my silly question because your eyes tell. The sadness in your eyes while smiling shows that you are trying to be okay as you constantly fight the urge to cry right now.❞
Of course, I am trying to be okay in life, not for my sake but for the people around me. I want them not to worry about me, and I don't want them to think I become more vulnerable while growing older.
However, who remains happy at this age, anyway?
Maybe other people, but I am not other people. I am still the same person that my loved ones know and whom they adore so much. The only thing that changed was my constant crying every night while lying in bed and staring blankly at the ceiling with no thoughts in my head.
Sadly, this is not the life I want, to be honest. Nevertheless, this is reality and not some kind of fantasy. I cry easily about all of the things I have no control over, and at the end of the day, I have to appear as a strong and independent woman to other people.
I am not weak, or maybe my pathetic self is trying to be strong, or maybe in the process of convincing myself that I am strong even when I am dying inside for real. Regardless, my eyes tell when my mouth lies.
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