Zynder glanced at Louisa and saw her with half-opened eyes. Mukhang napagod at hindi na kinaya ang antok. Truthfully, gusto pa niya ngunit nang makita niya ang sitwasyon ng babae ay nakuntento na lamang siya sa pagyakap dito at pagpatong sa ulo niya sa may dibdib nito.
He languidly sucked Louisa's nipple but she moved and complained, "Zy . . . mamaya na."
"Hmm . . .?" he hummed before popping her nipple again in his mouth. "I won't do anything, I promise," dagdag niyang ika dahil para bang nag-aalala talaga ito sa maaari niyang gawin.
"Hm . . . okay," pagod nitong payag bago muling pumikit upang matulog.
A few seconds of comforting silence enveloped between them while he was contentedly sucking Louisa's tits. Mukhang nakatulog na rin ang babae dahil wala na itong reaksyon sa ginagawa niya.
After awhile, he stopped and propped himself better next to her. Hinila niya ang babae upang mapahiga ito sa kaniya bago niya inayos ang kumot na nakabalot sa mga katawan nila.
He slowly watched as she slept the night away, not knowing that the literal devil was just here next to her—Little Red Riding Hood snuggling with the Big Bad Wolf.
"Fucking beautiful," he whispered under his breath while brushing her hair. Paulit-ulit niyang hinalikan ang noo nito hanggang sa gumalaw na naman ang babae at mukhang nagambala ang tulog dahil sa kaniya.
"Zy . . ." she tiredly called out to him. "Matulog ka na, please."
"I can't . . . you looked so beautiful, it fucking hurts."
"Hmm . . ." she mumbled but a hint of a smile painted her fucking adorable lips.
"Mababaliw na ata ako, hon," bulong niyang ika ngunit hindi na siya sinagot ng babae dahil nakatulog itong muli. Binaon niya ang mukha sa malambot nitong buhok at nilanghap ang natural na amoy nito. "I fucking love you so much that I think I'm going insane. Do you know what I was thinking while you are on a date with that bitch? I was thinking how easy it is to break her fucking neck with just a snap. Fuck . . . makakapatay nga talaga ako, hon."
Pinagmasdan niyang muli si Louisa at napamura sa isipan, "One day, I would really kill someone because of my jealousy and it would be all of your fault. It's your fault that I am going crazy. It's your fault that I'm like this. Ikaw ang dahilan kung bakit ako ganito."
He had a bad, bad feeling that if Louisa used the word "please" and give him that puppy-eyes look that she mastered, he would definitely give her anything that she wanted.
Anything.
Even if it means burning down the world or killing himself.
He pulled his girl closer to him as if they weren't close to each other already. Kinuha niya ang mga braso nito at niyakap sa kaniyang katawan bago niya pinatong ang ulo nito sa kaniyang dibdib. He hugged her so tight that people might think that only one person was sleeping in this bed right now. And maybe he really wanted it to be like that. Maybe he wanted people to see that they are one. That she is his. That no one can take her from him without a fucking fight.
"Don't leave me, hon . . . hmm? Makakapatay ako."
He wanted to own her, possess her, protect her. He wanted to brand her full fucking name across his unloving heart, carve her face in his flesh so he would never ever forget her.
Loving a gay person is a sin?
Fuck that.
And as he gazed at a small cross adorning the door of his room which the caretaker, Aling Meng, insisted that he hang, he suddenly thought:
Forgive me, Father, for I have sinned . . .
. . . but oh this fucking sin felt so good and so right.
Louisa woke up with a searing headache, a numb body, and a sore ass. Parang ayaw pa ngang bumukas ng mga mata niya ngunit alam niyang kailangan na niyang gumising dahil direktang tumatama sa kaniya ang sinag ng araw.
Unti-unti niyang binuksan ang mga mata at nakita ang nakabukas na bintana kung saan nanggagaling ang malamig na simoy ng hangin. Ang kurtina na nakabitay doon ay tila ba sumasayaw sa kanta ng hanging-probinsya.
Kinusot-kusot niya ang mga mata at nilibot ang paningin sa buong kwarto. Zynder wasn't there and the bed felt so big because of his missing presence. Hindi na niya ininda iyon at maingat na ginabayan ang sarili upang makababa sa kama. Agad naman siyang natumba nang subukan niyang tumayo dahil ang sakit-sakit ng pwetan niya.
Zynder's cock was a fucking bitch. Gusto niyang murahin ito ng paulit-ulit dahil pakiramdam niya ay nasa loob pa rin niya ang ari ng lalake. She truly believe that he left a molded impression of his dick inside of her or something.
"Putang-ina ka, Zy." napahawak siya sa may bandang tiyan niya dahil sa sakit na nararamdaman sa loob.
"Hon?" Hindi niya nilingon ang tumawag sa kaniya ngunit alam na alam na niya kaagad kung sino iyon.
Inis niyang dinampot ang unan sa may kama at binato iyon ng malakas sa lalake. "Tang-ina ka, Zy! Huwag na huwag ka ng lalapit sa akin!" She doesn't really mean it but she was just angry.
"Aw!" Rinig niyang daing nito. Nilingon na niya ang lalake at nakitang nasalo nito ang unan na binato niya.
OA.
Akma na sana itong lalapit sa kaniya ngunit ang table lamp naman ang dinampot niya. "Hon, wait! What did I do wrong?"
"Tang-ina ka! Ang sakit ng pwetan ko dahil sa iyo!" inis niyang sigaw ngunit binaba pa rin niya ang hawak na lamp. Kinuhang chance iyon ng lalake upang lumapit sa kaniya at alalayan siya.
"I'm sorry, hon." pagpapa-cute ng lalake sa kaniya ngunit inirapan niya lamang ito. Walang pasabi naman siyang binuhat ng lalake at pinapapulupot ang mga binti niya sa waist nito. Nag-akto siyang napipilitan ngunit sa loob-loob niya ay kinikilig siya. "I tried cooking breakfast for us but . . ."
Napakunot ang noo niya dahil sa sinabi nito ngunit nang umabot sila sa kusina ay agad niyang naintindihan ang ibig sabihin nito.
"Tried" was such a far-fetched word from the disaster that he made. Some sunny-side-ups still had some of their shells on them, the burnt "pancakes" looked more like a roll of black disc than actual food, and the poor hotdogs and bacon didn't survive either.
"I tried," he grumbled again as if defending himself.
"Hindi kita pinapagalitan," pagpapaalala niya dito dahil napaka-defensive ng lalake. He only pouted but did not say anything anymore. Nilapag siya nito sa may table at akma sanang tatapusin ang niluluto nito ngunit tinaboy niya ito kaagad sa kusina. "Alis at baka masunog po itong buong bahay. Ako na tatapos nito."
Or magsisimula, ni wala namang nalutong maayos si Zynder.
"But hon-"
"Alis," mando niya. "Isa," banta niya dito ngunit mukhang natakot na ang lalake at iniwan siya doon. Siya naman ay patawang-umiling-iling na lamang dahil sa inaasta ng lalake.
Isip-bata.
BINABASA MO ANG
My Sin In His Past (The 3rd Book of "In His Past" Series)
Historical Fiction"If loving you is a sin, sinner I'm ready to be."
