On The Edge Of Darkness

on the edge of darkness-32

Kongpob unlocked the door and closed it behind with tears gripping in his eyes he sees Arthit sitting to edge of bed with head hung low his shoulders were trembling he wants to hug him and remove the pain but he cannot he is the reason for his pain he is giving him pain in the end

He slowly reaches for Arthit shoulder he knelt to Arthit feet he sits on his folding legs, sobbing and his back was shaking like a feather, he frame his eyes to Arthit

Arthit eyes were tearing up in the dark room he sees kongpob figure trembling at his feet he wants to make him sit beside him but he don't feel his hands to help the trembling figure he just stares in a cold way

The cold stare is paining kongpob he swallows down his throat with tears gripping his eyes, both are in pain, there is no solution for this!

"you should have told me!" he snapped, his deep voice coming through his deeper layers of heart carrying a pain of son "I deserve the truth!"

Kongpob desperately shook his head "today morning itself I came to know this!" he speaking as his stomach twisting in pain he is feeling so cold and stomach churning in pain and knotting him twisting him making him feel Arthit pain

Anger flaring in him, Arthit ran his hand through his hair he is feeling frustrated! he needs to get sober, everything kongpob says is not believable to him, he is a son of a mother, his lover! his husband! father killed his mother to save his son who is in-turn his love, his complicated feelings "I was happy that your alive..."

Arthit words hit him hard kongpob reads Arthit resentment and he feel like he deserve it for what his father had done! if in his way he will be helpful to reduce his pain he will bare the words

"...my mother, was fighting with her last breath,"

Kongpob shoulders were trembling he was in same state too he was in last minute of his life on operation table he was lucky that he got a matching donor and his father rushed up saying, the patient in comma has no more chances to live and he proceeded for the surgery

"...I should have known about it" arthit bellowed with throat paining voice

Kongpob flinches for the voice he looks to Arthit teary eyes which are looking to kongpob as if he wants to kill kongpob! He sees Arthit throat moving up and down Arthit is swallowing. Can he remove the pain for Arthit! He wants to remove the pain, but how, Arthit is vulnerable, he understand the pain he also lost his father, and one thing that it's paining him is Arthit is not ready to believe him, he is a victim too, and his father died with the pain of killing, yes his father repented everything with his death, he is waiting for his wife, for one last hug and holding hands but his mother denied, his father was resented, hated by everyone he repented he bared the pain he died as a criminal not as a doctor and now this!

"..how am I supposed to tell you p'Arthit," he was pleading him softly he is shaking his head to believe and listen to him once, for one last time

Arthit eyes shot in pain he gets up to his feet he wants to walk away if he is still their he might do something to kongpob which he will regret for sure

But kongpob held his leg, he holds his knee cap he sob begging to listen to his side, he cannot take this pain, he is innocent, he is pure, he is Arthit's innocent and pure kid.

the last shot of Arthit eyes made his pain doubled he wants Arthit to listen to him and then he will move away he won't stay and make uncomfortable to Arthit, he will get away, he wants to tell that he love him and he did not cheat on his behind, he don't have any revenge plans, he never thought about the hospital too which is beyond his capability, yet he was happy that he got to work in the hospital where his father served as doctor to many people, right now he wants to tell Arthit that he did love him and he will still love him no matter now or tomorrow or in the next life he will only love only him!