On The Edge Of Darkness

on the edge of darkness-33

It was in the morning arthit woke up with terrible headache, Kongpob looks so pale he gulps looking to Kongpob collar bone he gasp with eyes widen, he forgets his headache with flashes of memories of him moving on top of him he felt dizzy he quickly studies his head looking down to Kongpob he flips the quilt revealing naked body filled with red blemishes like the first-ever time he made a beautiful art, it's the same, but his instincts are not good he is feeling gloomy, paining, hurt, guilty, remorse, resenting

He is afraid of what he had done to Kongpob he sees Kongpob stirring, he is alive, that made him breath for a second taking a look to Kongpob face churning in pain, he needs to respond first arthit is trembling remembering the incidents from last night, gets down the bed putting on some clothes and looks for Kongpob clothes he prepares clothes and fill the tub with warm water, he comes back siting adjacent to Kongpob he held a hand on Kongpob tear dried cheek caressing him, Kongpob stirred opening his eyes from the touch he looks around his eyes laid on arthit his lips trembling while arthit mentioning "I filled bath tub with warm water, fresh up first,"

Kongpob nods on pillow trying to get up but his limbs are sore he cannot he bite his lips head falling back to pillow he is helplessness he laid back. Arthit asking he picked him into his arms while Kongpob rest his head on arthit chest tears picking in his eyes while arthit slowly dips him in warm water, he is worried looking to Kongpob hissing all the time he just want to bang his head to wall then his mind will work straight, what did he do to Kongpob?

He knelt to tub holding fragile fingers "Kongpob, are you feeling dizzy?"

"I am fine, nothing to worry" the physical pain is making his brain busy he don't want the mental pain of feeling guilty for what his father done, so this physical is all he wants he can feel the pain

Kongpob immediately moan in solace he needs this, his limbs are paining too much especially his bottom he closed his eyes feeling the warm water stinging his bottom.

"I will be outside" arthit walks away closing the door, he slumps down to floor crying in deep silence he did abused Kongpob he hits the floor in regret, how can he do this? He bangs his hand to floor yelping in pain his hand was pretty much swollen since last night, he held his wrist closer to his chest, this physical pain is necessary for him, they have been themselves.

its been twenty minutes, he walks in gulping he checks on Kongpob who is not sparing any glance to him

He picks the silent Kongpob up from the water he makes him sit on the stool and knelt to him "Kongpob,"

He nod "I know you want to say sorry,"

Arthit nod "I am,"

"Its okay, I allowed you,"

"why?"

"we don't have anything left between us" he gives a pale stare to arthit

Arthit lowers his head 'it's true nothing is left between them' "I will help you with bath,"

"no need, I am good to bath on my own,"

Arthit nod getting to knees He hangs a fluffy bathrobe. he cannot even glance to Kongpob for what he did to him, he walks away closing the door his knees gave up he knelt to floor with silent cries

After twenty minutes Kongpob walks out in a white fluffy bathrobe closing the bathroom door he looks to arthit who sitting to the wall and sobbing holding his knees "you did not rape or abused me, you don't have to feel this way,"

Arthit looks to Kongpob walking inside the room, asking for "my clothes,"

Arthit gets to his feet getting Kongpob black hoodie and jean and a breif "can you wear these pants,"