Door to Jannah

Chapter 16

"Always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them."

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Ayesha's POV

It has been a week since our nikah and Ahmad doesn't even seems to be near frustration. How can a man have so much patience after I have treated him the worst I could by ignoring him? Because he is the man on deen. Whatever I need to get rid off him as soon as possible. It's been a week since I didn't talk my heart out with someone. My family was out, Hana's mom was not well and Hazal was busy in his new job. I was enjoying my job but there has to be someone with whom I need to share my life. I can't even go one day without talking non sense and I have been through it whole week. Ugh. There was only one man who was there but I couldn't talk to him due to my promise to Hazal that I'll marry him. Few things which I have learned about Ahmad is that he's too much into deen, he loves snowy, he loves too much of cleanliness. I was one to scatter things and he was the one to put it in its right place in a second. I have started pitying Ahmad because he is so kind. I wanted to talk to him but I was afraid that he'll not divorce me.

Today after school I decided to visit the orphanage and talk to the innocent kids there. They are my only hope who would cheer me up after a boring week. I bought chocolates for them as Ahmad does and when I entered the park the face of the poor kids were lit up with joy. They ran towards me as if they had never been as happy as today to see me. I love them so much.

"Bhabhiiii" everyone screamed and dragged me to the other side making me sit on the bench while others were standing

I sat on the ground initiating others to sit with me on the bushy green grass. I distributed chocolate to everyone and that feeling of making them happy was the best feeling ever. One chocolate was left and it was Sana who wasn't there in the crowd. I scanned the entire park and saw the little one standing on the corner with her doll. She was talking to the doll and I tip toed towards her in silence. She didn't had any idea that I was behind her.

"Cheep (sleep) my babu" she said while patting the back of her doll

"Don't wolly (worry) mama lubs (loves) you, mama won't leabe (leave) you." She said to the doll and I could sense her sad face

"Sanaa" I called her
She turned towards me and her sad face immediately turned to a smiling one.

"Ammiii" she threw her hands indicating me to pick her up
I picked her up and gave her the chocolate.

"Who is she Sana?" I asked her about the doll

"Thee (she) idh (is) my baby and I am her mama" she said while covering her face with her hands hiding the blush.

"You really like kids, isn't it?" A women's voice came from behind who looked around fifty years of age

"Umm no I don't really get along with kids but these are the special ones you know. By the way you are....?" I asked her

"Ohh I am the caretaker of the orphanage. Neither I have anyone with me nor these kids have. So we take care of each other" she said with a sad face

"Ohh I am really sorry" I apologized

"No you don't have to. And let me tell you you are really lucky to have Ahmad in your life. Nowadays it's not easy to find people like him. He does so much for the orphanage." She said with a smile
Oh my god she's so right. I am hurting a person who is so kind and generous but I have no other option.

"Ahmad really loves this child Sana. And let me tell you one thing he loves you a lot too. He always used to tell the kids about you" she informed me while patting my back to which I nodded with a smile
How does he loves when we even did not meet?