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t h i r t y - t w o

Hi humans! So this chapter is short and not very good... sorry bout that

I'd like to say how much I love y'all and this story

Thanks for holding on to this and to me.

This is for hoodisfire, LukeyGigglez and Crazy_fandom_girl cuz im in love with yall and your comments

xx, Nanda

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I sat at the edge of my bed taping my knees with my fingertips.

"What's wrong?" Luke asked sitting next to me

My desire was to say everything that's been bottled up in my chest, to say how lost I'm feeling, to tell him that's a great chance I might be actually pregnant and above all: if I'm really with a child, I won't tell him, I'll look inside his blue eyes and break up with him.

I know he's not ready for a kid, hell I'm not ready myself but its not like I have a big career dream ahead of me. Luke's got a great talent and a huge future ahead of him. I cannot hold him back.

"Liza?" He snaps his fingers bringing me back to reality

"Um, I" I rub my eyes and look at him "Nothing, let's sleep" I yawn and crawl into bed taking my shirt off "Today was a rough day"

"Sure you okay?" He frowns his brows and fishes his phone out of the pocket to read a text message

"Yeah, I'm just tired" I lean against the bed frame bringing the covers up

He stays in silence frowning his face to whatever disturbed him on the phone

"I've got to go" he says after several moments in silence

"What's wrong? I thought you were sleeping here" I lick my thin lips and frown my forehead

"Something's up with my mum, Kira is worried so I'm going home" he puts his shoes back on

"Wait, I'll go with you" I stand up quickly to put on a jeans and a sweater.

The drive to his house was quiet filling the car with tension. He didn't glance at me not even once. I chewed my bottom lip nervously thinking the worst scenario. He parked the car carelessly by the sidewalk and we marched to the front door.

When Luke opened the wooden red door we watched Kira crying on Calum's arms. I spot two blonde boys that clearly are Luke's brothers, Ben and Jack.

"Whats wrong?" Luke asks closing the door after I walk in

"He left us" Kira whispers "He just walked out saying he ain't coming back"

I frowned my brows. Luke was about to ask something else but we heard Liz coming downstairs with a bottle of vodka in her hands

"I'm glad y'all came to my pity party" She takes a big sip. She does not look like herself. Her eyes are swollen from crying, her fair hair is a gigantic mess, she threw a pink robe to hide her body.

"Mum, what happened?" Luke walks over his mom holding her into his arms

I approach Kira but Jack holds my arm

"Come with me" he says and I follow him into the kitchen "Kira's dad left" he says with no small talk

"Oh God" I cover my mouth with my hands

"Yeah, no one saw that coming" he runs his hand over his messy blonde hair "Things won't be easy, even more with this" he hands me a white envelope addressed to Luke "Arrived this morning and Luke doesn't know"

It's from Sheffield University. I open and read its content.

Congratulations Luke Robert Hemmings, we are very happy to welcome you to Sheffield University...

He got in. I can't help but smile.

"He got in, didn't him?" Jack says smiling but it fades away within a second "But he won't go, not when mum is a mess"

I look down and hand him back the envelope

"His sense of loyalty is bigger than achieving his own happiness" Jack says with a sad look on his face

"He has to go" I mutter trying to think of a way to make Luke leave Australia behind.

"Did you get yours already?" Jack asks

"Not yet" I reply "Regardless of my situation, Luke has to go." Even more if I'm pregnant

"He would consider going if you're going to" he pierce his eyes on mine, they remind me of Luke "Hell, that boy would follow you even if you didn't want him to"

"I know" I look down

I need to know if I'm pregnant, I really need to.

We walk back to the living room after I made Jack promise he'd hold on to that accepting letter for a little bit. Luke cannot know about it, not yet.

"Liza, come here child" Liz says when she spots me entering the living room "Luke, can you bring mummy some water?" Luke nods and rushes to the kitchen

I approach her immediately hugging her

"Take him away" she whispers in my ear "There's nothing here for him, he'll die inside if he stays here" she cries more "It took me a while to understand but now I see it, he's bigger than this"

"Liz, how?" I start to cry too

"You might now by now that no matter where you go he'd go as well" she smiles and tugs a piece of my brown wavy hair behind my ear "You just have to go" she smiles again "I don't want him to end up like me, left alone. The kids think this was out of the blue but I saw it coming. My husband and I weren't talking for weeks, I buried myself in work and ended up forgetting him" She looks down to her hand where a bright diamond ring was placed "Actually I don't know if we loved each other at all, I married him because I was lonely and he was good to my boys" She glances to the three blonde boys sitting on the couch

"You did what was best for your family" I say sweetly "Don't feel bad about it" I kiss her cheek

"He got to know love when he met you" Liz's voice fades into her own sad gasp "Keep doing because he's happy"

I nod once again

"Boys, help me up please" she glances to her sons.

After a while they got her up on her feet and heading to the bedroom. Kira walked towards me hugging me

"How did you cope when your dad left?" she asks me

"Just like a broken heart, you take it one day at a time" I hug her kissing her forehead "Don't forget that Liz and the boys are your family too, Calum and me as well" I swipe her tears away "You're not alone"

She nods thanking me, shortly she asks Calum to walk her to her room. They all leave and Luke comes back with red eyes.

"Promise me you'll never leave me" he hugs my tight "Promise me you'll always be here on my corner" he kisses my neck

"I promise you" those dangerous words leave my mouth even when my brain knows I probably won't be able to keep this promise "I'll be right here"

I take a deep breath and decide to come clean. I can't hide things from him, because every time I hide things when he finds out its worst. I end up even more hurt and sad.

"I have to tell you something" I tell him pulling out of his embrace

"Please, not tonight" he bags rubbing his eyes "No more for this day, whatever you have to tell me you do it in the morning. Let's rest" he takes my hand not knowing this might be the last time we hold hands.

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Oh Hi, me again
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