'Rejection' A feeling i'm used to (Completed)

Chapter 5

Logon's POV (birthday!)

I was meeting my mate today.I was excited,but also I didn't want one at the same time.I loved my laid back-player ways.But I wanted my mate to be able to run the pack,be a powerful Luna.Someone who wasn't weak,who can stand up for themselves.Mostly I wanted her to be sexy,And gorgeous.
My wolf was already howling with joy,and anticipation,of wanting to meet his mate.
Yet like I said I loved my player ways,and I don't want to let go of that,but if my mate was anything like Nicole with her amazing body,I would totally get rid of them.
I wasn't shifting because I already have.Male wolves would shift at the age of 14,The female would shift at the age of 17.
I was throwing a party tonight and I was hoping to find my mate there.I told Jalice to set up the snacks,and drinks.I hope that lazy bitch can get things right.I didn't really hate Jalice,I actually used to have a crush on her when we were little.Yet when her parents died,Her brothers and the rest of the pack started teasing and beating her,so I went along with it.I had felt bad doing that to her,screaming at her,and all the bad things.I was hurting her for no reason,treating her like a piece of shit just because the rest of the pack was.
I was ashamed of myself,I was better then this.But I didn't want my reputation to drop just because of a girl.Even if it was,Jalice.

As i walked down stairs an amazing scent went up my nose it smelled like vanilla,and apple.It was sweet,I looked around and saw that the pack was already eating,and Jalice was watching the dishes.
"JALICE!"Keven screamed.God,she's right there he doesn't need to damn scream.
She turned around to look at him.What I saw shocked me,Jalice wasn't wearing her glasses,and she had no bruises on her face.She looked....different.I felt my wolf start to howl with joy,and I didn't know why so I ignored it.


**Lunch-time**

I smelt familiar aroma I had in the morning,my wolf acting like he did this morning we smelled it.I was in the cafeteria sitting in our usual table,Nicole was sitting on my lap like always.I was looking threw, zooming threw the cafeteria with my eyes trying to see the source of the scent.Yet,nothing.
I tried again,My grey eyes connected with hazel one's.Jalice.Her eyes showed love,happiness,then it turned to confusion,sadness,and...hurt?.I was happy,but I was furious more than happy.I was happy I found my mate,But I was furious it was her.I needed some strong,not weak.I wanted someone sexy!not fat.I didn't want a fat nerd to be my mate!I don't saw she ugly,because the truth she's actually kinda pretty.But,it couldn't be!I didn't want her as my mate!I didn't want to walk around with her saying she was my mate!I couldn't,Didn't want to be seen with her.

'*No,No!NO!she is our MATE!,you can't reject her*'My wolf shouted in my head.
'I don't want a fat weak nerd as my mate!'
'*the only reason she's weak now is because the content beating you guys give her,and she doesn't even eat the only time she eat's is at lunch because you guys never give her any food,She wears those cloth to try to block out the kicks she gets each day*'how did he know all this?i had just made I contact with her a minute ago.
'*I was talking to her wolf,but she's gone now.DON'T reject her! I love her*'my wolf cried but I ignored him.i wasn't gonna let a love sick puppy drop my reputation.
'*is everything about your damn reputation*'my wolf spat.I blocked him out after that.

I used the mind link to tell her to meet me near the lockers after lunch.She just nodded and looked down at her food.And I think I heard her sob,but ignored it as always.God,I really didn't think it would come to this....ugh!



One second he's feeling guilty the other he only cares about his reputation,I think Logon's bipolar.
But at least he actually feels guilty,there's actually a heart deep,deep,deep,deep,deep,deep down.😂
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Love,Jasline43