Monster

Parchment 28: 'Home'

The train ride home is deathly silent, something I enjoyed then again hated. In silence my mind can take over and twist everything around, making light to dark, and good to evil.

Some people don't understand this process, for they themselves haven't been through it, I envy them for that. They don't know how it feels to be torn down by your own conscious and ripped to shreds by words that aren't even true.

But oh, they simply say, 'get over it', 'you know they're not true,' and 'why do you listen to them,'.

I don't know why. It just happens.

I can't control it.

I don't even understand it.

"Neb," I get thrown back into reality by Hermione's voice. The train comes to a slow stop and everyone starts to grab their luggage and leave.

"Y-yeah, sorry," I take my own belongings and wait for everyone else to leave. Once we all file out we all share goodbyes and good lucks for the summer.

I know already that mine is going to stink, not due to my mother but what just happened before this. It's in my mind and it won't leave.

Hermione talks to everyone on sending owls about every other day, or more often depending on how things are going.

"I will, I promise Ron," the red heads ears match his hair color, he walks away whistling happily. Hermione gives a small wave and goes to her parents, and once again, it's Harry and me.

"So, back to your home?" He starts a conversation between us since neither of our parents or guardians are present at the station.

"Yeah...home..." I reply zoning out majorly, which is quite scary if you ask me.

"Nebula, you will write won't you?" Harry asks, looking over at him I see the worry, how it's covering every inch of his face. I don't like to make people worry but, I don't like lying to them about my feeling and what I'm thinking, especially to Harry, we are kind of in the same boat right now.

"Yeah, I will, I most definitely will. Just have to get out of bed and yeah, oh I'm hopeless... I can't do this Harry," I turn my back to the other parents who are waiting for their own child or children to come and greet them.

I sound like a spoiled brat that can't do anything then complain about things I can't change.

"You can do this, if I can get through the Dursley's this summer then you can get through, alright?" He said giving me a small pep talk since I'm going to meet someone from my family soon.

"Yeah, I hope," he looks at me, knowing I have more to say, "okay, I just can't think positively right now." Harry lets out a sigh and puts his luggage down, he puts his hands on his hips and waits.

"I'm trying to help, come here," he opens his arms and I give him a quizzical look, "a hug..?" Where's an invisibility cloak when you need one, for I need to hide right now due to my stupidity. 

"A hug..?"

"Yes?" Harry replies with a kind of funny face. "Haven't you had a hug before?"

"Y-yeah but I never thought I'd get one from, well...a guy..." I admit, Harry lets out a light laugh and walks closer to me.

"This isn't claiming anything, it's just a friendly action towards someone who is currently down, please accept this hug," he wraps his arms around me, I get shocked by this a little, I didn't think he was actually going to do it.

But he did.

I return the hug, placing my arms around his neck I hold on to him for dear life.

Now, I know for sure I'm petrified of leaving and going home. Some people walk by and give us laughs or rude remarks but we both ignore them.

Pulling back from Harry a giant man comes behind him, I remember it's someone he lives with. It's not the son, but the father of the son and the name is escaping me right now.

"This your girlfriend Harry, I didn't know you had one, surprised, never thought you had it, she probably is a slob like you and doesn't know manners either." Harry's lips twitch at his uncle's words. Turning he gives a smart reply.

"She is not my girlfriend, she's just the younger sister I never had." He walks off which turns into a run, and with that, his uncle chases him out of the station.

I'm glad he doesn't think me in that way, as a girlfriend or something else. I'm happy with just being nonbiological brother and sister.

There comes a tug comes from my skirt, looking down I see Carrie, our house elf. A smile forms on her face as she holds her hands to the side, showing the direction we are supposing to go.

"Miss, your mother is waiting in the carriage just outside the station.." Carrie says in a quiet voice that is just loud enough to understand in a busy area such as this.

"Alright, let's go," and off I go. Into summer.

Yay.

That's was the purest sarcasm you'll ever get.

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Coming home I see how different it looks, it's something like a manor or a grand mansion.

Mother or father must have done huge changes since I've been gone, which that has been, two years. For those two years, I've gone to Hermione's and Harry's for the summer holiday instead, my mother agreed with it so I just went with what she wanted.

"This way Miss, I shall lead you to your room.." Carrie says carrying her small body up the giant stone stairs, that is almost too tall for her to step on.

The house is a simple maze that includes many dead ends, each dead end being a room of some sort. We even have an Astronomy room, that's pretty sweet.

Carrie leads me to my room and everything has changed, my books are in different places, the bed is moved and isn't even my bed but something out of the old days that has fabric draping over too with poles on four sides holding everything together.

"Carrie, when did this happen? This whole new, everything?" I ask she shrugs her shoulders and heads for the door.

"A few months ago, the Malfoy's came over, your father and Lucius talked for quite a long time, almost three days.. I believe it was sometime in January. Would you like some tea or snacks?" I take that all in, this is relatively new, wonder what happened during those days. How I would love to know.

"Just tea please, green also, not the fake stuff either.." I request, Carrie nods her head and her footsteps go farther away. Plopping down on my bed I get this uneasy feeling in my gut, something is weird here but I can't name what it is.

I take out everything from my baggage, Drew finds his spot and Corral takes her by the window. Jasper, he is still the size of a small dog, so he's easy to pack and travel with. I just hope he doesn't have his huge growth spurt soon. Or my mother will not be happy, she doesn't like dragons or any kind of beast that can't be kept as a normal house pet.

"Here's your tea," Carrie lays it upon my upgraded study area, which is a large table with shelves everywhere with cabinets and holes for pencils and other writing utensils.

"Thank you, Carrie," I smile at her, she gives a small smile back and scurries back off to the kitchen.

With a small sip of my tea, I take it what's around me.

This is my new normal now.