The Only One I Want

Him

6 days.He was absent for 6 days including the 2 days he was suspended.In reality it was 4 but I still counted the 2 days.
I had hoped I would see him outside of school like I had before but I didn't.I was dying without him.I knew that it didn't matter if he was here or not.He would've ignored me since we weren't even suppose to be friends.
But I still felt the need to at least be in the same room as him.I had been in denial the past few days and I needed to see him to be sure it was real.
It was currently the 7th day and I was standing in the hallway staring at the wall waiting for my class to start.When the bell rung,the hallway was immediately filled with people.I looked at the ground.I didn't want to see anybody but him.All of a sudden I got this feeling in my stomach.I felt the need to look up and I did.
When I looked up I saw him standing there.He was looking at me.As soon as we made eye contact,he turned away.I was happy to see him but I also realized  that what happened was real.We really weren't even friends anymore.
It hurt so bad to see him walk away from me and know that I could never have him.A tear fell when I realized how much this was gonna destroy me.

*Brenden's P.O.V*

I needed to stop.The past 6 days were horrible.I couldn't bear to see her around me and know we couldn't be together.I didn't come to school because it hurt to see her.I spent the last 6 days in my bed thinking about her.She had such a bright future and I didn't want to ruin that.I couldn't let her get harassed by those obsessed girls cause of me.She didn't deserve it.

I wasn't worth it.

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"Ok Lily we need to talk" my friends said to me.

It had been 2 weeks since the fight.It was almost the start of May.

"You can't keep moping around and being distant.We get it we truly do.But you have to move on.I know how much shit you've been through with him and how much you like him but you have to let him go" Diana said.

I nodded.

"Seriously though actually start doing stuff this time.We are tired of having this conversation with you" Jane said.

I nodded again.

"Lily stop nodding that's all you've been doing for the past 2 weeks.Actually talk"Sara said.

It took me a while but I finally spoke.

"Ok"I said.

I turned and walked back to my class.When I was walking I tripped and bumped into somebody.I looked up to see Justin.His bruises had healed and he was walking fine.His eyes widened when he saw it was me and I started to walk away before being stopped.

"Lily I'm sorry" he said.

I looked up and saw a face full of regret.

"No I should be the one apologizing to you for his actions"I said.

I had avoided saying his name this whole entire time and I didn't feel like saying it now.

"It's not your fault that Brenden did that"he said.

I winced when I heard his name and Justin immediately knit his eyebrows in concern.

"What's wrong" he asked.

"Nothing".

"No Lily something is clearly wrong.Let me walk you to class.You can tell me what happened while we walk"he said.

I told him what happened and his eyes widened in shock.

"I definitely thought he never would let go of you.I mean he basically  fought me for saying I care about you".

His eyes widened when he realized what he said and I felt the blood rush to my cheeks.

"You care about me"I asked.

"Yea"he said while scratching the back of his head.

"Wow I wasn't expecting that"I said.

He looked down at his shoes.I cleared my throat and he looked up.I smiled at him and got on the tip of my toes.Then I gave him a kiss on the cheek.

"That's sweet"I said.

I  turned and walked in to my class.I spent the entire time thinking about what Justin had said.I hadn't realized it before but I sorta had feelings for him.I was just too caught up in my feelings about Brenden to realize.I definitely use to care about Brenden way more.But I had to move on.Seeing him everyday didn't help.Every time I saw him I dug my nails into the palm of my hands.That was the only thing that stopped me from looking at him.That had to stop soon.
By the end of class I had already made up my mind.I was going to give Justin a chance.