Not Alone Buddy [#Wattys2016] [complete]

Chapter four: Voices

Trigger warning- depression
Nisovin PoV
I wake up from my endless sleep, I feel lightheaded from the cutting yesterday but not to bad, I have to have lunch with Rob and Mr White today. They'll want me to eat maybe Rob told him I wasn't eating, the voice say he the snitch and you were being so nice you idiot,you worthless, freak. They make me want to cry it good that I don't have a roommate but I can't become close to anyone anymore not after what happen. The voice start to talk speaking badly of him, I get the blade from behind the radiator and cut, it feel good it feels like I am alive, all the stress fade into nothingness. I put it back quickly and close my eye so when they give me breakfast I can play it off like I am sleeping.

Trigger warning ended

Rob PoV
It breakfast and I am enjoying my egg,bacon and toast, Mr White come in and said
"Rob, today will be eating lunch with Nis, he may not eat, if you can encourage him to it'll help him get better"
I nod
"I'll try, do you have anything to drink"
He smile and say
"That the Rob I know, here you go and well done when talking to him yesterday you weren't to hype which make me feel a lot more comfortable for him"
I smile again and he hand me a cup of tea, I put it on my tray and say
"How your wife and kid doing"
He look sad, I know how hard it been for him, he work all day and sometimes in the night and his little girl is in hospital of her own.
"She hasn't given them up yet"
I give he a warm look at say
"We've all got problem, the only difference between me and you, is a hear voices and you don't that it"
He nods and says
"She did it to herself "

Nisovin PoV
It only 15 more minutes till I have to meet Rob, I put on my usual black clothes and brush my teeth. my hair doesn't need brushing it touches my shoulder, I've been letting it grow, people say I look cute with my hair long but who care I am not tying to impress them. the voices are still there just whispering, there quit active today.

Rob PoV
I get dressed in my dark blue top and black jeans, run into the bathroom and brush my teeth I look at the time only 5 minutes to go.

Mr White
I walk into Nisovin room he ready and I say
"We're going to eat in Rob room is that ok?"
I smile, Nisovin seems off today.

Nisovin PoV
"We're going to eat in Rob room is that ok?"
He smile, it didn't real seem like a question it was more of demand, one voice say he doesn't care what you think you worthless freak. I try to block them out but it doesn't work, it not to bad I can deal with it for now.i nod we walk to Rob room and he enters I follow behind, near Rob's  bed there a table and 3 chair. Rob is sitting down one of them, I sit down and Mr White sit next to  me. On our plate was a beef burger, Rob start eating and so does Mr White but I just look at the meal, Rob then say
" you should eat"
I shake my head and the voice scream your already fat and useless. You want to die right not just be alive you want to live well you can't because your stick with us.
I mutter under breath
"Go away"
"But I want to help"
The voice say we went to help you die
"You aren't helping your just voices"

Rob PoV
"Go away"
Why is he saying that to me, I've done nothing wrong just live I pick up the courage and say
"But I want to help"
"You aren't helping your just voices"
What, why is he saying stuff like this to me i thought I was his buddy the voice start and say he think  your worthless, nothing as everyone does, he was just pitying you yesterday he didn't actually think that stuff.
"No,no,no shut up"
I say trying to tame the voice inside my head someone touch me on my shoulder, I fall backward and scramble backward toward the bathroom Nisovin screaming say
"Go away I am not worthless you are"
There right, he thought I was worthless the voice are right maybe they were all way right.

Nisovin PoV
They were repeating telling me I was worthless and nothing I scream
" go away I am not worthless you are"
They don't listen to me but then over all the voice I hear Rob screaming, I can't see at  all my focus is on the voices nothing else
"There right, I am wrong, they were alway right"
Who right and why is he screaming, I try to turn off the voice, there not off but there quieter than before, now I can hear the real world and see Rob.scremaing cover his ear with his hand. Mr White is not here probably went rushing get  for help two metal people in a room is not a good idea. Rob then scream
"Make the voice stop, the voice in my head are killing me"
Wait did he just mention voices does he hear them too, I go close to him take his hand away for his ear and whisper
"I hear them too"

Mr White
When Nisovin was shouting and after I touch Rob, they both were going metal, both boys were talking about the voice, I hat to run out and find help. I am running down the hall looking for people but no one can be find it is Saturday so most people take the day off
But I know who will be here Jake and Moe they'll be in room 5 which is 9 room away from Rob's I may be to late but I have to try.

Authors notes
Hey how did you like it, comment about why do you think Mr White daughter is in hospital for and what do you think Rob will do after Nisovin said I hear them too, good, bad what do you think. Anyway comment,vote, follow for weekly updates.
And thank for 16 view really thank you I love writing this and I love when people like reading it too
Sorry for it being long lot of stuff I wanted to do, say in this chapter and I wanted to end on that line

This was made on Sunday 5 June 2016
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From Poblol and goodbye