don't // afi & lrh

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a r i e l

i haven't talked to any of the boys since the practice which was three days i just can't... not even luke. sex ed was quiet i sat in the front ignoring everyone and everything. "ariel!" mr. johnson said snatching me from my thoughts. "what's the first thing you must make sure of before having sex," he asked. "... making sure sex is consensual on both parts."

"right" he smiles continuing on with his lesson. i huff out a sigh of relief. going back to my previous state: writing down every thought in my head. "wait ariel can you pass out my assignment for me please?" oh god no... "sure" i said forcing a smile getting up out of my seat and grabbing the assignments. i turn around to see the boys looking and whispering. i sigh making my way through the rows.

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a s h t o n

today was the day... the day we all had to present our first poem for our project and we were the last group... ariel got up slowly going to the front of the room without a word as usual. you could tell she was dreading this very moment. she stood there with her pastel pink folder shaking in her hand. she unclipped the matching pink pen opening up her folder. you could tell she was nervous she always was nervous speaking in front of people only until she started to get into every word of a poem. the teacher gave her a empathizing smile. "i-i..." she huffs "i i-it's called hopeless romantic" she stuttered. she takes a deep breath and starts:

"i-i just want to pretend like you never existed
maybe it would be easier
i thought things were going to be different
you implanted theses thoughts into my brain that you weren't the same
i was a hopeless romantic
and he...
he was just a bullshit poet
telling me beautiful lies
the beautiful lies i wanted to hear
i just wanted to be loved
and i found you
my intentions pure as fucking gold
i gave everything to you for a quick moment
my heart, my soul
but it wasn't enough
instead you decide
i deserved to be broken
broken into the point
i wasn't able to be fixed
and you
you could careless
probably moving on to another
saying the same bullshit lines
you spoke
oh so beautifully to me" she looked up to see the entire class lost in her every words making her cheeks turn into a bright hue of crimson. the entire class snapped for her as she returned to her seat next to me. now... now it was my turn.

a r i e l

he stood in front of the class pulling out a slightly crumbled and folded piece of paper. "it's called fat man..." he said making the entire class laugh "it's... it's like the atom bomb," he rambled on slightly as ms. price tried to calm down the class. "go on ashton," she smiles motioning for him to continue.

"i'm sorry is the only thing i can say
i'm like an atomic bomb
not caring about who
nor what's in my way
i destroy any and everything
not even giving it a second thought
but instead of hiroshima you were the target
and you didn't even care
you..
you thought you could defuse this mess
the mess i made only destroying yourself in the process
exposing yourself to the radiation
not even knowing it
i'm killing you from the inside
but i truly don't mean to
i'm sorry
i should've told you to stay away,
from me
everyone told you
that i was no good for you
and they weren't wrong
but you didn't listening
im not supposed to be saved
i should've destroyed myself along time ago
then you came giving me hope things would change in only a few days
for the better i hoped
i'm so sorry
i keep pushing you away
but it's for the best
you don't need the pain that comes with loving me"

as he recited these words there wasn't a smirk or a hint of sarcasm like usually his eyes were fixated on me not daring to look away or make eye contact with the people in the room. as he recited these words with so much passion. he made sure i knew it was meant for me. he made his way back to me sitting beside me. i was too busy staring at him to realize ms. price's lecture until she said the few lines i dreaded; "guys please, please! don't forget to check in with your partner. it's a part of your grade. don't forget to sign each other's check-in sheets... and don't even try to get them just to sign it and not meet at all..." she looked at directly at me.

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today was the day ashton and i had to check in so we met... once again... at the coffee shop... once again... i could still hear ms. price high pitched voice, "don't forget to check in with your partner" i walked in to see ashton in our seats from before. a carmel frappe and a glazed donut wait for me. "hi..." i say lowly taking a seat. "th-that's for you..." he smiled. i mumbled a quick 'thanks'. pulling out my folder. "did you have any ideas for your next poem it's kind of due tomorrow... well not kind of it is." i sigh. "i didn't have any ideas at all honesty but seeing you again helps a lot." he smiled gently rubbing the back of his neck nervously. "w-well... i think we should get started..." i open up my folder pulling out my partially finished assignment. "do you want us to start with you, i could help you with some ideas or i can help-"

"can we just talk not... not about the assignment... just talk. the assignment is about getting to know each other and how we'll effect your writing" he interrupted taking a sip of his coffee.