toxic fate

7

I took a deep breath, and I brushed my fingers against the keys of the piano.

[A/N: The lyrics are in bold, and her thoughts while playing; are under each stanza.]

How many days have passed like this?
How many days I have to stay strong?

The city, the crowd is fading, moving on.
I sometimes have wondered where you've gone.
Where are you? Are you well in heaven?

Story carries on, lonely, lost inside.
I'm lonely without you.

I had this dream so many times.
The moments we spent have passed and gone away.
And, him; I wonder if he's alright.

Could there be an end to this, what I'm feeling deep inside?
You know there's no looking back.
I remember those days..

Glassy sky above, as long as I'm alive you will be part of me;
Glassy sky, the cold, the broken pieces of me.
I still listen to your advice; No matter what happens, be strong..

The mystery of it I recall.
Suddenly the truth will change the way we fall.
What happened to you?

I didn't wanna hurt you, hope you know.
Empty promises, shattered dreams of love.
Remember you told me to run because you don't want to hurt me?

Sometimes I wonder what's beyond.
I tried many times to make it up to you.
I don't like to admit this but..

Can somebody tell me what to do?
Thought we're meant to be; there's no going back.
I missed these old days..

Time has already come.
Sun is gone and no more shadows.
Someday, I will see you again..

Can't give up, I know, and this life goes on,
I'll be strong, I'll be strong 'till I see the end.
And I'll thank you again..

Glassy sky above, as long as I survive, you will be part of me;
Glassy sky, the cold, the broken pieces of me.
Glassy sky above, covers over me, over me.

My fingers trailed off as I stopped. I felt my heart throb, and I clutched my fists. I got up, and begin to walk back to where I originally was.

"Ah, I like yours. It seemed very tragic~" Momo said.
"Thanks.." I replied in a dried voice.

"Lastly, Neon." Momo called.

Neon awkwardly shuffled her feet. She fiddled with paper, which the lyrics were written in a bright, neon font. She then started singing with her soft voice. She didn't make eye contact with anyone. She just stared at the ground silently while she sang.

I'm not a stranger
No I am yours
With crippled anger
And tears that still drip sore

A fragile frame aged
With misery
And when our eyes meet
I know you see

I do not want to be afraid
I do not want to die inside just to breathe in
I'm tired of feeling so numb
Relief exists I find it when
I am cut

I may seem crazy
Or painfully shy
And these scars wouldn't be so hidden
If you would just look me in the eye
I feel alone here and cold here
Though I don't want to die
But the only anesthetic that makes me feel anything kills inside

I do not want to be afraid
I do not want to die inside just to breathe in
I'm tired of feeling so numb
Relief exists I find it when
I am cut
Pain
I am not alone
I am not alone

I'm not a stranger
No I am yours
With crippled anger
And tears that still drip sore

But I do not want to be afraid
I do not want to die inside just to breathe in
I'm tired of feeling so numb
Relief exists I found it when
I was cut

Depressing.
As soon as she was done, she quickly came back to where she originally was.

"All of you had such sad songs~ so you all pass!" Momo lifted its paws in the air while balloons came landing on the ground out of nowhere.

"Oh, I forgot to mention! Starting from tomorrow, you will be having actual lessons! But that doesn't change the fact that there are still unsolved mysteries too! Oh, be in your best tomorrow, we will be having a surprise guest! Now, you're all dismissed, for it's the end of the day!" Momo let out a hollow laugh.

More like crazy day.

We let out a deep breath, and headed towards the exit without a word. We headed to our dorm rooms silently.
Such awkward silence. Everyone must be over thinking.

I headed towards mine, and locked the door behind me. I don't want some psychopath intruding into my room, and then killing me. I value my life too much for that.

I placed the paper on my dresser. I then took a quick shower, and slipped into my pyjamas. Oh, and it's surprisingly 7:15 p.m.
Too early I guess?

I'm hungry too. I haven't eaten since the morning. I could literally die of hunger right now. I could rant to you about how hungry I am, but I don't have time for that. I need food.

I unlocked my door, and got out quietly. I begin to head towards the cafeteria. I finally sigh in relief that I actually reached there, and I wanted to get food quick. I switched on the lights, and there was an intruder.

Oh crap.

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(A/N: Please note that the songs attached to this chapter and the previous aren't mine. They belong to their rightful owners. Thanks!)