wonderland 「 jungkook 」

[fifteen] it still hurts

수 차례 정신을 파고들던 고뇌
the agony that dug at my mental state

yellow morning light filtered in through the window, narrowly missing the resting pair under the covers. alice's head was resting comfortably on jungkook's thin, right arm, and it was long since numb; he could barely move his fingers, but he didn't mind at all. still, he figured it couldn't be comfortable for her with her neck propped up like that; she'd have a kink in her neck when she woke. so he slowly moved closer, gingerly placing his free hand on the back of her neck and moving her so that her head was on the soft pillows.

in her sleep, the girl mumbled as creases formed between her eyebrows. she shifted around, and jungkook started feeling bad, thinking he'd woken her accidentally. she stretched a bit and spread her arms out cutely before she touched jungkook's narrow waist, making him blush furiously as she came closer and closer before resting her head on his chest. it was the most endearing thing jungkook had ever experienced, and he couldn't help but smile foolishly as he wrapped his arms around her protectively. on impulse, he placed a soft kiss on the crown of her head, feeling the soft hair under his nose. she smelled like the field of flowers in wonderland.

he felt the questions he'd pushed to the back of his mind last night resurface rapidly. there were millions of them, but the most pressing by far was...

what were they?

he was still astounded that the events of last night were even real; the only thing keeping him from dismissing them as a dream was the fact that she was sharing the bed with him right now.

she'd kissed him.

she even made the first move.

jungkook had absolutely no experience with girls, but he wasn't a complete idiot. she must feel something for him. he didn't know if she was as head over heels for him as he was for her, but... there had to be something there. he didn't know what they were now, if she wanted to be with him, but he decided that he'd just see how it went for the time being. he was willing to wait lifetimes for her.

his cheeks were flushed with pink and he couldn't stop smiling. he never thought it was possible for her to feel even slightly the same as him. he still felt like he was in a dream. if he was, he didn't want to wake up.

by chance, he looked down at alice and below her on his stomach was the old book of alice's adventures in wonderland. it was faced downwards, damaging the spine further. he realized that he hadn't been able to finish it; he'd fallen asleep on the last chapter. slowly, cautiously as to not wake the sleeping beauty, he picked it up and began again.

[+]

"lastly she pictured to herself how the same little sister of hers would, in the after-time, be herself a grown woman; and how she would keep, through all her riper years, the simple and loving heart of her childhood; and how she would gather about her other little children, and make their eyes bright and eager with many a strange tale, perhaps even with the dream of wonderland of long ago; and how she would feel with all their simple sorrows, and find a pleasure in all their simple joys, remembering her own child-life, and the happy summer days.

THE END."

as he finished the work, there was a sense of accomplishment accompanied by a feeling of emptiness. he'd forgotten how much he used to love reading, but this book reignited the passion for it in his heart, rehydrated his deprived mind. he felt the message soak into him as he peered down at the girl laying peacefully on his chest, still sleeping beautifully with a face that was the epitome of tranquility.