false alarm - g.d

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Grayson 💀💋
Today 1:03 AM

You hurt me
But I'm not seeing this as a bad thing
It's natural
I know what pain is
But this
This is something else
I know I said that I would give you space
But for once I can't do this
I feel empty
You caused this
You pushed me
You actually fucking pushed me
I can't even function correctly
I haven't been on my A game
I'm not me
Remember those photos in my room you were looking at?
You asked me if was happy with you?
I was
I truly fucking was
We didn't even end it officially
Yet it feels like you've been gone for years
No contact
That's how connected we were
I just wish I knew what was happening
Why you walked out on me?
I swear I love you
god you sure do know how to crush a girl
You know how to break her
You know how to destroy her til she's nothing but crumbs
You murdered the fucking cupcake
Smashed it with your fists until I was mush

Baileyillustrations@icloud.com
Today 1:12 AM

Cupcake
It's me

What do you fucking want

I can finally explain

Explain why you're such a prick?
A cunt?
A heart breaker

Okay I deserve all those names
I'm sorry cupcake

Don't fucking call me that
You lost that right
stupid runt

Look Sahar I wasn't fully honest with you

When are you?

I've done some pretty fucked up shit in my high school years
It's coming back to bite me in the ass
And the guy who's coming at me is trying to get to you

That's such bullshit

No it's not
He's stalking you
He tapped into my account
I'm on an iPod right now with a new apple account
Cupcake, I swear I'm not lying to you
I had to make it seem like I broke it off with you
I wasn't going to let him harm a hair on that beautiful petite body of yours

How do I know if you're lying or not?

***

I stared at the screen, debating if I should accept the FaceTime or not. My finger hit the green button, and I hit my face.

"I swear to you, cupcake. This is real. He is out to get me and if that means he's going to try killing you, I need you out of my life for a bit."

"What did you do?"

"It was an accident. But I got his closest friend killed."

"What did you do?" I gasp. It was like I didn't even know this person on the other end. I didn't really know the person On the other line ...

"I used to sell."

"Please tell me you're going to say exotic animals."

"Drugs, Sahar. Drugs."

"Did you—"

"No. Never. Sahar I know what you're thinking right now."

"Do you really?" I DEAD pan. "Do you truly know what I'm thinking? What I feel? You clearly don't. You're cold hearted and you're fucking stupid to think I don't care. That I don't worry about you."

"I know you worry about me, but you shouldn't waste your time on me."

"Do you know how crazy it sounds when you say there is a guy who wants to kill you? It sounds like a cliche Law & Order episode?"

"We're not all saints, cupcake."

"Don't call me that."

He stayed quiet, pursing his lips. It felt odd. It brought back memories. Good memories.

"I'm sorry."

"Those words have no meaning to me right now."

"I love you."

"Don't. Don't do that!" I cry. "You can't just tell me you love me just to fucking make me feel better. You couldn't even say it." I start to sob, wiping at my eyes.

"Sahar, baby," he says softly. "Don't cry. Please."

"Fix your problems. Just fix them before you think of speaking to me again."