Im what?

Ch.20

*cams pov*
We've been waiting for awhile now. Everyone one else came a while after we arrived.

*lexies pov*
No I'm not dead, I did try but I didn't succeed. Just the guys won't know that. They'll think I'm gone, well if my moms okay with it.
*calls mom*
L-hey mom
M-baby you're okay does matt know?
L-Im perfectly fine mom and no he doesn't know nobody knows and don't tell them please
M- why not sweetheart?
L- mom I know this is a long shot but can I fake my death? I want to make it big without matts help...
M-fake your death?
L-yea, um after you give me permission the doctor will give me a sleeping pill and they can say goodbye. But I'll go out to Virginia and we can change my name and I'll start there by dying my hair, getting colored contacts and recording a video then maybe you can share the video so it gets out there? I just want to prove to everyone I can do it without Matthews help and once I'm big or if I get big I'll reveal that I'm not dead
M- oh um this is hard but I guess you can do it, but don't come out to Virginia, I'll do that on my own what do you want your name to be?
L- Ellise  Gitas. You can put Espinosa in there too if you want
M- okay how about Ellise Espinosa Gitas?
L- yea that works thanks mom I love you
M- love you too just write a note saying something like 'you'll be back soon' to one of the guys. I'll call you later sweetie
L-okay bye
M-bye
*ends call*
She actually let me, wow. I told the doctor she said yes and to give the note to Cameron which inside said 'Cammy, I love you and I'm sorry. You where always there for me there was this part of me who loved you like a brother and the other half loved you more than a brother but that would never happen, again I'm sorry I made you hurt but I'll be around. Love, lexie' and all he had to say is that it was in my pocket, I hid my phone so I can still have there numbers. "Are you ready miss. Espinosa?" The doctor asks "yes" I say "you will wake up in an hour or two" the doctor says as I take the pill and he walks out.

*cams pov*
"Miss. Espinosa?" The doctor says and I practically run towards him. "I'm sorry, but she didn't make it" the doctor says with sadness all in his face "no" I whisper as I felt the floor beneath me was crumbling "she wrote a note" the doctor says holding up a piece of paper "who is it for?" Matt asks equally as hurt as I am "umm. Cameron?" The doctor says I grab the paper shaking and I read it 'Cammy, I love you and I'm sorry. You where always there for me there was this part of me who loved you like a brother and the other half loved you more than a brother but that would never happen, again I'm sorry I made you hurt but I'll be around. Love, lexie' I read "can we say goodbye?" Johnson asks "yes you guys may but you guys will have to leave in about and hour. Room 61" the doctor says and we all hurry to lexies room, well except carter he left to who knows where.

*3rd person pov*
They all walk into the room Seeing what they think is lexies dead body, they were all in tears even if it seemed like they didn't care lexie brought something into their bond that made them closer, but now that glue was gone. They all said goodbye and they all had time to tell her things privately. nobody knows what they told her not even herself only the person who said it to her. She was going to be deeply missed. Pictures from the paparazzi have been going around so had the hashtag #prayforlexie or #prayingforthemagconboys
Once all the guys where leaving they decided to post a video of lexie (video above) saying 'you will be missed deeply #Riplexie', even Carter posted it, as they all went home lexie woke up.

*lexies pov*
I woke up and I felt broken, I let my brother and his friends go thinking I was dead, I check my phone and see a message from my mom
MOMMY 💕- well ellise, it's official *picture of her name changed*
Lex- so it's real?! My name is ellise Espinosa gitas!!!!
MOMMY 💕- yea. Now hurry up and go change what your going to change and post the video and I'll share it. Love you sweetheart
Lex- alright I'll send the link and follow you from my new profiles. Love you too

After I put my phone away the doctor said I could leave, I left and dyed my hair and cut it then I  went to some place where they could change my eye color without contacts and got more tattoos, wow I look different