Infiltration - Spencer Reid x Reader

Chapter Twenty-Two

You woke up to the morning sun streaming in through the windows and delicately rolled over to face Spencer. He was still asleep, breathing deeply and rhythmically. You laid there, watching his peaceful face, thinking about what you two had shared last night. You couldn't help but smile. Quietly, you slid to the edge of the bed and swung your feet off of it. You slowly took yourself off the mattress, careful to not make a sound or disturb Spencer in any way.

Your duffel bag was on a chair in the corner of the bedroom, and you walked over to unzip it and find your pain medicine. Although you were on cloud nine from last night, you could still feel the bruises, the black eye, and the stitches on your abdomen throbbing.

You made your way to the bathroom quietly, and tugged your shirt up to reveal the healing wound. The bruises on your body and your black eye looked even worse this morning, and you winced at the softest touch. You heard a groan come from the bedroom and heard the covers rustle, but ignored it as you traced the dark splotches on your body. You didn't notice that soft tears were sliding down your face until you heard a voice directly to the side of you:

"(Y/N)? Are you all right?"

You whirled around to the sound of Spencer's voice, dropping your shirt in the process. His eyes scanned you briefly, no doubt calculating and analyzing the situation you were presenting him. The tears still came; your hands lingered protectively over the wound in your abdomen.

Spencer tentatively stepped forward. Without caring, you stepped into his chest, tucking your head underneath his and wrapping your arms around his neck. He wrapped his arms around you, resting them on the small of your back. You let the tears transform into sobs racking your body. You weren't okay. You could still feel the breath of the unsub on your face, the butt of the gun connecting with your skull, the hyper-realistic moments right before you were stabbed.

"What the hell am I even doing?" Your voice came lurching out, threatening to crack with the emotions flooding your body.

Without letting you go, Spencer responded with a gentle "What do you mean?"

"Every-everything." You choked out between sobs into Spencer's chest. "I don't have anything.... I don't have a home, I haven't been able to talk to my friends in months, I haven't seen my parents in a year, I don't even know who I am anymore."

"(Y/N), I—..." Spencer began but you cut him off, your voice shaking intensely.

"I can't even protect myself — I — I ..."

Spencer rubbed your back soothingly, trying to calm you down.

"You — you don't have to do this."

Spencer continued the soothing circular motions on your back

"You're right, I don't have to do this. But, I want to." Spencer reassured you, guiding you to sit on the edge of the tub.

"It hurts. My head hurts. My heart hurts. My body..." You cringed.

Spencer leaned away from you and turned the tub's faucet on. You sat in silence broken up by sniffles and swipes at your face with your hand.

"Warm to hot baths with epsom salts are known to help relax the body, ease stress, relieve pain and cramps, and facilitates better function of your muscles and nerves." Spencer explained to you as he rose and sifted through a cabinet to produce a resealable bag.

As the water level in the tub rose, Spencer unsealed the bag and poured a generous amount of the lavender smelling epsom salts into the tub. The falling water swirled the salts until they were eventually melted. Spencer looked at you with a sheepish expression before giving your shoulder a squeeze.

"Just call out if you need anything, I'll be brewing some coffee in the kitchen." Spencer said breezily.

"Okay...Thank...Thank you so much. This means more than you know."

You continued to sit on the edge of the tub, waiting for it to finish filling before slipping out of your clothes. You had one foot in the bath when you heard the shrill ring of your phone emanate from the bedroom. You jerked it out, and swiped a towel to wrap around yourself before opening the bathroom door to retrieve your cell.

It was your supervisor calling, and you answered hastily.

"Hello? This is Agent (Y/L/N)."

"Hey, (Y/N), how are you doing? I've been taking care of the paperwork from the trafficking ring and working of filing the reports from the undercover op. I know that you...err...sustained injuries a few days ago and was wondering if you are up for coming into the office for a brief meeting with me and our psychologist. You know, protocol..."

You supervisor trailed off and you paused for a few moments before you could gather your wits and voice to answer.

"Yeah, of course Powell. I hope the paperwork is going well. Sorry for not making initial contact; The past few days have been crazy...."

"Hey, don't apologize! I expected as much. Does today work for you? Around 2? Or is that not enough notice? I figured that you would be in the D.C. area, if I know you at all...." Powell chuckled softly, trying to reestablish some humor and normalcy to the conversation.

"That works for me. I'll see you at headquarters at 2."

"Perfect. We can talk more in a little bit. It's good to hear from you, (Y/N)."

"You too. See you soon."

You tucked your phone back in your bag and noticed Spencer was standing in the doorway to the bedroom eyeing you warily.

"Something important?" He asked with arched eyebrows.

"Kind of...My supervisor wants me to come in to headquarters to talk with him and meet with the psychologist. I knew it was coming, just not today."

Spencer could tell that you were a bit shaken from the conversation.

"(Y/N), you don't have to go in today. You know that agents get mandatory leave when injured in the line of duty."

"I know...But I would rather get it over with now. So I can start slow..."

Spencer nodded his head in agreement.

"Okay. Well, I can drive you if you'd like. But for now, you should probably take that bath. Once the water approaches room temperature, the epsom salts become less effective..."

You smiled at him genuinely.

"Thank you..."

You couldn't help but notice how much you had thanked him in the past few days. 

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Sorry it's been a while since the last update everyone. I've had a lot on my plate and have been pretty overwhelmed. Luckily, I think everything is starting to slow down a little! I really hope you enjoy this update. There will be more to come soon! :)