SOTUS: Hand over heart

Chapter four

Kongpob's slight emphasis on the word 'see' made Arthit stop in his tracks. He knew what Kongpob meant. He knew that voice quite well. He looked at Kongpob's pixelated image on the video. His eyes were slightly red. His expression was stern. What was up with his 0062 all of a sudden? Was he drunk?

" what the hell Kongpob ? Just let me be right back "

" loosen up the towel Arthit "

" what? " Arthit's heart was in his throat. He held on to his towel more tightly.

" I want to see you touch yourse...."

" KONGPOB! How dare you! "

" can't I ask that much from my boyfriend P' ? "

" No! What has gotten into you? Why are you acting this way? You are being a pervert "

" haven't I waited enough? Don't you desire me the same way? Don't you miss me? "

" I thought you didn't care where I was headed , that you only wanted to be by my side"

" that is not enough anymore Arthit "

" we are not talking about this right now Kongpob. Not like this "

" please Arthit. I want to see you right now! "

"We are done talking Kongpob " Arthit slammed closed his laptop. His heart was beating fast. That conversation was unexpected. The image of himself putting on a show for Kongpob was both exhilarating and dirty. His brain had gone into an autopilot mode and had outright rejected Kongpob. He wasn't ready for their first video call in weeks to go in such direction. Despite just having had a bath he was hot and sweating again.

He knew this was way overdue. And it's not as if he didn't want Kongpob as well. He did. He was harsh to Kongpob. He admit it. Kongpob had stuck by him even if his behavior was infuriating. Now he didn't know how to start talking to Kongpob. Should he apologize? But what if Kongpob asks him to get naked again? It was a bit much for him. Should he just talk to Kongpob like he usually does? But that would mean he hadn't taken Kongpob seriously. He should probably wait for Kongpob to speak to him first..

Arthit lied on his bed looking at the ceiling. How would have their conversation gone if he hadn't backed away? Would Kongpob given him a show too? His throats had gone dry. No.. He better stop that particular though process. Grandma, Arthit. Think about grandma..He wanted to go home soon. His boyfriend was needy. And the looking past his stubborn heart, he was too.

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Kongpob had slammed shut his laptop as well. He was angry. Not at Arthit. He was angry at himself. His fever was increasing. In his delirious state When he saw Arthit wet in nothing but a towel his mind had gone crazy. He couldn't believe he had made such requests from his senior. He had made Arthit uncomfortable. How was he ever going to face Arthit again? He was supposed to wait for Arthit whenever he was ready. But now he had ruined that image.

Why was it this difficult to date a man? Walking in the rain with Chanpen had revoked some feelings in him. He wanted It to be Arthit so badly. Would it have been easier if Arthit had been a girl? Would Arthit have been comfortable if he had been a girl?

There had been no follow up message from Arthit. Maybe Arthit hated him at the moment. Kongpob was going to wait until he was forgiven.

He closed his eyes and drifted to sleep.

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The next day Kongpob was sat with his friends picking on his food. He was still not feeling completely well. Arthit hadn't forgiven him yet. It was making him miserable. It was bad enough that he missed Arthit. Now it seems they weren't in good terms. It felt like the time Arthit had given him the silent treatment when he had accidentally reveled his feelings. Since the thanking the seniors party they had never had a fallout. He never thought there would ever be a reason for them to not speak to eachother deliberately. He took another look at his phone screen silently asking Arthit to forgive him.

" Ai Kong, Arthit 2.0 is heading this way " Oak whispered to him.

He closed his eyes. Now this woman who had been making him feel things and made him question his relationship with his senior. He didn't want to look at her face.

" sawadee kha P' Kongpob "

Kongpob just nodded in acknowledgment

" you seem unwell. Did the rain make you fall ill? It's my fault! I made you get wet! "

Aim and oak looked at eachother. Kongpob ignored them. They weren't going to let him off the hook.

" I'm fine N' Pen"

Pen put her hand on his forehead.

" you have a fever P'. You should rest "

Kongpob immediately stood up as if someone burning hot had touched him. He swatted Pen's hand away

" N' Pen! Who gave you permission to touch me? " he shouted at her angrily. It's the last thing he needed at the moment. An Arthit look alike to care for him when he was sick.

" Ai Kong, calm down " Aim was tugging in his arm. " this Nong was just worried . Why didn't you tell us you were sick? "

" it's nothing "

Pen looked like she was about to cry.. Kongpob groaned internally. Great.. now this one hates him too.

" P' Kongpob. I just came over to return your shirt back. Thank you very much for yesterday. Sawadee kha " she had left after greeting everyone at the table.

" what the hell was that? Why does she have your clothes Kong? " Aim asked him.

Kongpob shrugged " it's nothing important "

He looked at the freshman who was leaving . He was starting to act like Arthit when he was the head hazer. What had actually gotten into him these days. He was lashing out on everyone.

" N' Pen! Wait "

Pen turned and watched him questioningly.

" I'm sorry. I shouldn't have shouted at you. I was surprised "

" it's ok P' Kongpob. I can see you are stressed " she was smiling. Kongpob couldn't focus on anything except her lips and signature dimples. He smiled back.

Arthit...

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The separation anxiety was kicking in more stronger than ever. Arthit had been feeling queasy the whole day. Why hadn't Kongpob sent him a message yet. Was he that angry at Arthit for rejecting him? It's not the Kongpob he knew. Kongpob always forgave him when he acted out.

Why was this time an exception? Did Kongpob want their relationship to escalate that badly? Had Kongpob been unsatisfied this entire time they were together?

The training program was keeping him busy day and night. He longed to hear Kongpob's voice. He didn't know if Kongpob had cooled down yet. Along the years he found out Kongpob was in fact a very clam person most of the time. He hardly lost his temper unlike Arthit .But when he did lose his temper it didn't go away for ages. When he was angry he mostly kept to himself and didn't talk to anyone. When Arthit once asked him about it his answer was speaking while in anger only resulted in making matters worse, so he would wait until he cooled down.

Arthit felt he was being punished. It made him sad. He felt the punishment was unfair. He wasn't comfortable at the time. And Kongpob should have respected that.

On the other hand he felt this unusual disagreements and sensitivity was caused because they missed eachother too much and didn't know how to handle it. He had never been away and less in contact with Kongpob for this long before. He didn't know he needed Kongpob's presence and nagging to function properly. He had taken Kongpob's kindness for granted.

He was ready. And he was going to surprise Kongpob.

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A/N - Regardless of whether you are a male or female try not to get naked infront of a webcam kids. You don't want to end up on dodgy websites do you?

I tried to end this chapter less suspenseful because the next one will take a few days.. exams and stuff

Also you all need to calm down. Even I'm not that evil..

oh wait.. I am..