"Oh, grow up Standall." Justin pushes me playfully.
I told him about how upset I was about Matt.
"Justin.""Come on dude. Grow up." Then he walked away to be with his girlfriend. Of course. I knew I can't trust anyone with anything.
Homework today was hell. Every class. Yesterday's that I didn't finish."Why didn't you do your homework? You have no excuse, Alex." Basically all the teachers told me.
I do have an excuse, but it's hard to explain.
What do I say?
"Yeah, my best friend was just killed in an accident and I'm depressed as fuck so I can't focus on anything."?
They'd tell my mom, because of everything with Hannah, then my mom would get pissed at me.
I know I seem overdramatic. I'm sorry.I'm sorry.
I find myself saying that a lot. I find myself thinking about dark stuff like I used to. I wish it would stop, but it doesn't, it won't.
I shiver on my bed. I feel numb. And there's nothing I can do.
All the pain in my life is starting to catch up to me again. I'm losing the battle.I sit up on my bed, looking at myself in the mirror. Face scarred.
I look down at my feet then back up again.Tonight.
Tonight, you win.
(A/n: OH SHITTTTTT SORRY ITS SHORT again I didn't know how to write and what to write so here. I'll probably update once more tonight but I have a track meet tomorrow an ours today was cancelled. I promise the next chapters will be longer. Bye for right now :) )
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FanfictionAlex Standall, alone most of his life, all responsibilities fall on him. His mother doesn't even take care of him. Alex is popular. He's got some friends. But he loses his closest and best friend in a terrible accident and he takes it horribly. H...