After (Larry Stylinson) WILL NOT BE COMPLETED

Chapter 47:

A/N: I'M SO FUCKING GLAD THIS CHAPTER IS DONE.

IT'S ONE OF MY FAVORITE CHAPTER BUT FUCK, IT TOOK ME DAYS TO EDIT THIS BECAUSE MY APPS WEREN'T COOPERATING.

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I blink a few times to clear my frantic mind. I told him I would answer truthfully, but now I am too afraid to.

"Well?" he repeats for the second time since his initial question.

"Yea" I mumble and hide my face with my hands just to have him pull them away. Even when he touches my wrist, it sends flames through my body.

"Yea what?" His voice is strained, like he is desperate for my answer.

"I missed you" I gulp, expecting the worse. What I did not expect is his sigh of relief, and a smile to appear across his beautiful face.

I want to ask him if he missed me also but before I get the chance to speak he begins to talk again.

"Really?" he asks, How many times is he going to make me answer this? I nod in reply and he gives me a shy smile, Harry shy? He seems to be pleased by my admittance, probably because he knows he has me wrapped around his finger.

"Now can I go back to sleep?" I whine, I know he isn't going to reciprocate my confession with one of his own and it is really late.

"Only if you agree to sleep with me, as in the same bed of course" he smiles.

I sigh and lay down on Tristan's bed , careful not to touch Harry. A sudden yank on my legs causes me to yelp in surprise, Harry lifts me off the bed and throws me over his shoulder. He ignores my kicking and pleas for him to put me down until we reach my bed.

He rests one knee on the bed and lays me down on the side against the wall and then lays down next to me. I glare at him silently, I am afraid that if I fight with him he will leave and I know I really don't want that.

He reaches down and picks up the pillow that I threw at him earlier and places it between us as a barrier.

"There, now you can sleep" he smirks and I smile back at him, I can't help it.

"Goodnight" I half giggle.

"Night Louis" he laughs back and I roll over on my side. I am not anywhere near tired now that I know Harry is so close to me, so I decide to just stare at the wall.

A few minutes later I feel the pillow move from in between us and Harry's arm wrap around my waist and pull me to his chest. I don't move it, or call attention to his actions because I am enjoying the feeling of being against his chest too much.

"I missed you too" He whispers against my hair. I smile knowing that he can't see me. I feel the light pressure of his lips against the back of my head and my stomach flips. As much as I love this, I am left more even confused than ever as I drift off to sleep.

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My alarm goes off way too early and I roll over to shut it off. The memory of Harry coming to my room last night flashes through my mind and I snap my eyes open to find Harry sitting up next to me, staring down with an amused smirk.

"You're really cute when you're asleep" he teases and I sit up as quick as I can.

"What's the alarm for?" He asks and hands me my phone. I switch it off and climb out of the bed.

"I am going to go and try to find car today, so you can leave whenever you want" I tell him and he frowns.

"You're obviously not a morning person"

"I am.. I just don't want to keep you" I feel a little guilty for being rude, but I had expected him to be rude as well.

"You're not. Can I come with you?"

"To look for a car? Why would you want to do that?" I am suspicious of his motives.

"Why do I have to have a reason? You act like I am plotting to kill you or something" he laughs and ruffles his hair.

"Well, I am a little taken aback by your cheerful mood this morning. and you wanting to go actually go somewhere with me" I admit.

"I just want to.. I don't have anything else to do"

"I think counting the tiles on the ceiling would be more fun than coming with me" I do want to spend more time with him but my judgment is already to clouded by him. He confuses me too much, there is too much back and forth between us.

"Look, if you don't want me to go just say it and I will leave" His annoyance is evident.

"I do, I just.."

"You just what?"

"I am afraid that you will be ..unpleasant to me the entire time"

I turn away from him and gather my clothes. I need to take a shower before I go anywhere.

"I won't be. I promise, just let me show you that we could. that I could be nice. It's just one day" he smiles.

I feel like we are constantly trying to be friends, not be friends, stay away from each other, be friends, stay away from each other, stay the night with each other, and so much energy is put into whatever this is between us. Natalie will surely break up with me and never speak to me again if she knew that Harry stayed the night with me, in my bed, holding me as we slept. While I am lost in my thoughts it finally seems okay for me to admit that listening to Harry's steady breathing in my ear while he slept was worth never speaking to Natalie again.

I don't know what it is that keeps me constantly afraid of losing Natalie, maybe it is my fear of my mother's reaction if we broke up, or maybe that my old self is so tied to Natalie, she has always been there for me and I feel like I owe it to myself and her to continue our relationship. But I think the biggest reason is because I know Harry can't and won't give me the type of relationship I need and honestly want from him.

"Earth to Louis!" Harry calls from across the room. I have been so busy standing here mentally debating with myself that I had forgotten Harry was even in my room.

"Is something wrong?" He asks and steps toward me.

Oh, nothing just that I am finally admitting to myself that I have feelings for you and that I want more from you but I know you will never care about anyone, especially not me.

"No, I was just thinking about what to wear" I lie. His eyes move down to the clothes in my hands and he tilts his head but doesn't say a word.

"So, can I come? It will be easier for you anyway so you don't have to take the bus. That's what you were going to do isn't it?"

He is right, it would be easier. "Yea"

"Yea what? You're going to let me take you or you had planned on taking the bus?"

"Both" I walk towards the door and he follows me.

"What are you doing?" I ask him.

"Coming with you"

"Ummm... I am going to take a shower" I dangle my toiletry bag in front of him and he grabs it from me.

"Me too" he smiles. He walks past me and opens the door without looking back. I rush to catch up with him and grab ahold of his shirt.

"Nice of you to join me" he jokes and I roll my eyes.

"We haven't even began the day and you're already annoying me" I tell him and he laughs.

A group of girls walks by us and into the bathrooms, they don't even try to be subtle about staring at Harry. They aren't staring at him because of all his tattoos and piercings, they are staring at him because he is hot.

"Ladies" Harry smiles at them and they giggle like school girls. Well they are technically school girls but they are adults so they should act like it. I scold myself for being so angry at every person that Harry comes in contact with, he is single and he can do what he pleases, I just wish it was with me.