"Natalie, are you okay?" Is the first thing Cole asks making a smile form on my face.
"Yes, Cole I am fine, feeling better. Much better actually, Cole there is something I've been wanting to tell you," I announce.
"Oooh so tell me." Cole puts a sarcastic girly voice on.
Suddenly it feels like I have a ball stuck in my throat, after a quick deep thought I finally find how to say this. "Cole.... I can't tell you this over the phone, so next time we see each other I promise I'll tell you." I froze I never knew this was so hard.
"Wow, you would get me excited for some juicy new then not tell me." Cole chuckles.
"So sorry Cole Mitchell Sprouse, I will never do it again." I sarcastically say.
"Fine gosh don't tell me now, are you going to school tomorrow?" Cole asks now his voice sounding concern.
"I will see how I feel," I answer.
"Okay, I'll let you rest now cutie." After Cole calls me this I have this strange but promising feeling in my stomach. The thing I don't get is that why am I feeling this now, he always calls me cute names but now it makes me feel like this.
"Night Cole." I giggle.
"Sweet dreams Nattie," Cole says then I hang up.
Fuckkk what am I going to say if I go tomorrow, I can't go tomorrow I am not prepared for this at all. I for some reason have a feeling I'll have no choice to go, and I know if I go out to ask mum if I have to go tomorrow I will have a bunch of explaining to do. I really don't want to explain either so I think it's best I stay in my room, I still can't believe them my mother lied to my face thinking I would actually think they are undercover cops. That is bullshit and they think I'll believe that, god, how dumb do they think I am. But that right now isn't the most important thought I'm having the most important is how to tell Cole, why is this so god damn hard it's crazy I've known him for about a month now and I feel like I have known him for my entire life. I am going to school tomorrow and I have no idea what I will say and I'm going to school being and looking like a mess. I will have bandages on my hands and bags under my eyes, now won't that be a good look. I undress from this gross hospital gown and put my pyjamas on choosing my blue fluffy pants with clouds on it and a fluffy plain white long sleeve. after putting them on I lay in my bed sheets and now I am so warm, I now look at the roof slowly falling asleep.
I wake up to a stabbing pain in my fists and in my belly, I walk out of my room still in my pyjamas, I drag myself down stairs look through our cabinet filled with pain killers grabbing two of the round red pills and swallowing them with a gulp of water. Now walking back upstairs and looking for what to wear today. Grabbing my black lace bralette with a white top, a huge as damn grey woolly jacket with light blue ripped jeans (from the photo). I put my look on and hide my bandages with my jacket, I don't bother eating breakfast even though I haven't eaten for like two days. I decide to walk today well I make that decision every day for school but oh well, before I leave I put my white Nikes with a black tick on and leave the house. Looking at the time smiling at my success it is 6:30 am so I can now go to the cafe and enjoy my usual, I get there before I walk in my eyes scan the shop I see Valaire and Harry laughing and having a drink. I back away from the cafe and walk to school, to my luck I must have walked slowly to the cafe because it is now 7:00 am so I guess I will just sit at my tree and have a think while waiting for the bell to ring. I have time to think about what to say to Cole, I honestly by now would have thought about what to say by now but I guess I have a lot more on my mind than usual. The bell now rings and I have to now walk down the halls which I will find many upsetting views but hey I'll live, I'm Natalie Abigail Mendes I am honestly almost broken inside but nobody but me has to know that. I get to my locker to see a very cute looking boy who I am so deeply in love with.
