After Wrong Number

Ease part II

Ease
Troye Sivan x Broods

Matthew Gray

His touch, his comfort, my lullaby.
We were holding on tight, sleeping at night. We never let go of one another.

God.. How much I missed those nights.

You'll realize how important the small things were the moment you'll lose the person itself. Those small things were always the best moments with that person.

He always knew how to make me feel at ease, just by holding onto me and never letting go. His warmth was one of the things that calmed me down at an instant. He didn't have to try.

"Matt?" Justin shook me out of my thoughts.

"Oh sorry, what?" I asked confused and looked into his worried green eyes.

"I asked you something" He reminded me and smiled weakly almost sympathetically at me as if he knew what I was thinking about.

"Oh right, sorry" I apologized immediately, feeling guilty for not paying any attention to him.

"I don't exactly know what helps me. I mean, focusing on him was what helped me. He always knew how to help me, because he was right there and now-" I sighed, thinking back at those small memories.

How he laughed at me every time I talked or got worked up about something totally pointless, yet he was listening and looked genuinely interested.

Or how we both stared at each other, taking in each other's features. We had time, so much time until he became sick. I remembered how we smiled at each other like two lovesick high school girls as if nothing could tear us apart.

Sadly we parted our ways. Unwillingly.

"It's okay Matt, you don't have to tell me" Justin tried to reassure me and smiled.

"It's not like I don't want to tell you, it's all just one huge mess right now and I don't know what or how he did all those things" I sighed thinking back at those good and now, hurtful moments.

This was so weird. What was I doing? On a normal basis I wasn't as so open about my life as I was now. Why was I suddenly so open towards Justin? Why did it feel so natural and safe? This was nothing like me.

"Hey, don't worry about it okay? You're taking everything too hard on yourself" He said and it looked like he really didn't mind my behavior which made me genuinely smile at him for once.

"Thank you Justin"

"Of course, no problem"

"No I mean seriously.. Thank you so much. I know I haven't been the best these days and you being so patient with me helps a lot. You're the only one who hasn't been forcing me to talk, change my behavior or relieve everything. Thank you for that" I told him and once I let out all those words I couldn't look away from his surprises bright green eyes.

His eyes were putting me at ease.

"I- God you have me speechless Matt.. No problem, really. I haven't done anything, I actually look up to you because of how strong you are"