After Wrong Number

I am titanium

Titanium
Sia x David Guetta

Matthew Gray

"J-Justin?" I whimpered and tried to pry my eyes open.

My eyes met a blur from the lights that were shining so bright, but I think it looked like Justin.

"Matthew!" He instantly hugged me and let me go after a couple of minutes.

I felt so warm and fuzzy. I couldn't even bring out any words to say and I never wanted this to end either. All I wanted were his arms that would be around me for ever. The thought of that made me feel butterflies in my stomach.

I slowly tried to sit up only to be pushed back against the bed again.

"Hey, hey Matz, baby, calm down. I'm here now okay? Just rest" I heard his voice shaking, as if he was panicking which was rare for the Justin who always seemed to be collected in every situation possible.

"Wh-what happened? W-where am I?" I questioned when I felt my head pounding like crazy and my stomach hurting.

I suddenly heard a faint beep that kept going on in the distance. But my main focus was on the pain in my head and stomach. I felt like I was kicked in the stomach and run over by a truck more than once. Luckily my eyesight slowly came back.

"You're in the hospital babe.. You took an overdose on alcohol and XTC, but luckily your mom found you on time before any permanent damage would happen to you" He sighed in relief and slowly caressed my cheek whilst making deep eye contact.

My heart dropped when I saw the familiar forest eyes changing into pools of tears. I knew he was holding it in, but he was on the edge of crying and letting his feelings flow out.

"I-" I stopped and made an expression whilst the pain became worse.

"Hey, it's okay. Matty, just breath" He whispered in such a way that even my body reacted and relaxed to it.

I slowly tried to inhale and exhale in hope that I wouldn't throw up. It seemed to help after a while though.

"How are you feeling?" He asked me.

"Like Donald Trump came over to poison me with his face expressions"

He let out a soft yet genuine laugh. I missed hearing that laugh especially when I was the cause of something that beautiful.

"W-whe-" I tried to question the whole situation, but I couldn't think straight anymore.

"Your mom is getting some clothes and other stuff for you along with Ryan since you probably need to stay here for a while. We all have been visiting you also your friends from school came by" He explained as if he knew what I was about to ask.

"O-oh.." I didn't know what to say or how to react in this situation.

I couldn't make an excuse. Justin had to know the truth. And I can't hide that anymore. I'm suicidal and that's how it is.

"You attempted suicide Matz.. Why? I knew when I saw you last time, you were sad, but I never thought you'd-" He stopped in his mid-sentence and I saw him struggling with bringing some words out.

"God, I've been so stupid not to see it" He muttered ashamed, blaiming himself for the damage I made for myself.

My eyes went over him, I saw that his usual styled hair were messy. It made him look cute and very different since I'm not used seeing it.

His green eyes didn't look as bright anymore, they were red and he looked drained. His face mostly spoke of hurt and guilt.

I didn't really feel a lot when he explained that I attempted suicide, again. I mean this was the second time and it was honestly no surprise. I was not happy and I was influenced by all this negativity.