After Wrong Number

I'm scared to be lonely

A/N: COMEBACK!
It's been three weeks and as first I'd really wanna apologize to all of you for abandoning all of you like that.

I was caught up in my school work: homework, projects, tests and exams. It was so much that I couldn't keep up with writing and editing. I also saw that I pushed myself to keep my promise on updating every week and that isn't a good sign so this break was good for many more things. But now I'm back and I'm sorry!

Thank you for waiting if you did, I appreciate all the love, votes and comments (I love spams and all those sweet or funny words).

I wish you a nice day and again: thank you!

Scared to be lonely
Dua Lipa x Martin Garrix

Matthew Gray

Today was another day of school.

Actually I was almost done with my classes today. Luckily it was Friday, which meant spending some more time with my friends.

And Justin.

Ryan and I haven't been talking nor making any eye contact ever since our argument. All of my past negative feelings came back on the surface when I thought of the possibility of losing Ryan, even though I had no idea what I did wrong.

I've been texting and calling him all the time yet he never responded to me. I also haven't seen him wandering around the halls today, he was most likely trying to avoid me just like he did before our argument and it bothered me a lot.

Because I wasn't sure why and what I possibly could have done wrong.

I tried everything in my power to walk up to him and talk with him yesterday, but he made up some silly excuse and left me behind.

His excuse was that he really needed to go to the gym.

Ryan his psychical condition was the worst, so he never went to the gym!

I've never slept this bad in a very long time and it only reminded me of all the bad that happened. About how happiness wasn't meant for me and that I deserved to suffer, because I wasn't worth it.

Maybe Ryan realized that and that's why he acted this way.

I let out a deep sigh once I walked back into the school hallways.

"Hey Matthew" I heard West say as he walked besides me to walk me to my locker.

"Hey.." I greeted back, not in the mood to have a conversation with anyone.

"Oh no.. I recognize that face, is it about Ryan?" He asked while watching me.

"Yeah.." I simply admitted.

I couldn't pretend like everything was fine anymore especially now that something bad happened between me and my best friend. I couldn't lose someone again.

Not that I would blame them for walking away from me.

I grabbed the books that I needed for my last classes and looked at him.

"I need to go to the bathroom for a second. I'll see you in the canteen okay? Tell Justin I'll be right there" I smiled a bit at him.

And maybe, just maybe, I was thinking about the fucker Justin.

"Sure, but if you're gone longer than 5 minutes I will have to check up on you" He warned me.