After Wrong Number

Don't you worry child part II

Don't you worry child
Swedish House Mafia ft John Martin

Matthew Gray

I woke up to the sound of my doorbell ringing. I slowly tried to get up while groaning and walked towards my front door, not caring that I looked like a complete mess right now.

My dark hair was messy, I had huge bags under my dull gray eyes and my face was probably either red or sweaty. I was also wearing some sweatpants and a simple t-shirt, that had to mean something for someone who always wore sweaters.

When I opened my door, my eyes instantly widened in surprise as I saw Justin and Ryan stand in front of me.

"W-wha-?" My voice came out raspy since my throat was burning like a bitch.

I tried to speak but couldn't really say anything any further. Not only just because I was surprised by the both of them. But also because I had a killer headache and so my throat was also still hurting a lot, making me have trouble with speaking.

"Hey Matt, we-"

"Matz? What's wrong, you look horrible" Justin interrupted Ryan and rushed towards me.

"Well thanks.." I sighed, rolling my eyes.

"Hey, I didn't mean it like that! You're gorgeous. You just look exhausted and so.. sad? Did something happen? Who hurt you? I will kill them! You worry me a lot right now Matz, what's going on?" He rambled in a cute way.

My eyes fell on Ryan then, mentally begging him that he would make up some excuse for me. He probably already noticed what was up with me. I just hoped that he agreed on playing along.

"He- uh- Justin, you need to leave" He said without an explanation.

I didn't blame him for it though. What could he be possibly saying to explain this.

I nodded in agreement and looked at Justin. He had a frown on his face and I actually felt my heart jump at that. And not in a good way this time.

"Do you.. Do you really want me to leave?" He asked me in a soft tone.

My heart clenched right after that, knowing he felt rejected and confused. I just didn't have a choice but to lie to him right now. I know he'll be asking about this later on again.

"I'll see you at school okay?" I whispered, not looking into those beautiful eyes anymore.

This is what I meant when I said that my depression keeps me away from people. I can't tell anyone because either they will be freaked out or think I'm insane when they do know or I have to lie and make up silly excuses like right now.

But Justin really couldn't know about this. I wasn't ready to lose him too, not after everything.

I'm mentally ill and I know it'll make him leave me when he finds out. I'd be devastated if he'd leave me too.

This was what was best for now and I couldn't change that. I just really didn't want to lose Justin, even though we weren't official boyfriends or anything just yet, I liked spending time with him as much as I liked it with Ryan.