I'm (NOT) The same [On Hold]

•Faint but Beautiful•Ch. 10

Beep! Shut Up
beep! shut up
Be3E0! ShUt uP
bEeP! WHAT THE FUCK BRUH!!
BEEP!!!! SHUT THE FUCK UP!!!!
BeEeEeEeEeEeEeEeReeejsksndkksnkzmksn~!!! My alarm chimed.

Once again I slapped it and threw it across the room. Finally…
I sat up and scrached my head, laughing at my reflection in the mirror on the other side of my room.

I got up and got dressed ready to go to hell. I put on my red sweater and black jeans with my headband that had devil horns on them.

Well, might as well blend in. I giggled before purposly rolling down the stairs for coffee. 
Thump, tHuMp, Jdksjsjjskkdl
Thump, thud.

"So that's how we do now?" My mom asked giggling at my efforts. "Yep, my legs are jelly till I get caffeine." I sat smiling at the coffee pot.

Today I grabbed my teal and white to-go coffee cup and walked to Jake's for the two hours before walking.

He was so creerful.  I wish I could be that happy .YOU ARE WITH JAKE SI STOP COMPLAINING YOU ASS OF A CONSENSUS.

As he sat down in from of me with those blue headphones around his neck he stole a bite of my muffin.

"Hey!" I said grabbing the muffin. He just laughed, he was laughing so hard his face turned purple. "I love you~" he said.

"okay you attacked my muffin though!" I say pouting.

We left his house at 7:05am as usual arrive at school at 7:20.

When we walked in all eyes were on us, we were holding hands at school. I could feel Jake start to lag behind me.

I squeeze his hand a little just to assure him that it's okay. "It's going to be all right." I whispered to calm him.

H squeezed my hand back. I felt him slowly but surely ease up a bit. Gawd he's so cute and shy and flustered.

As we walked to get breakfast hand in hand, I felt dizzy. I don't know why but it felt like the world around me was spinning.

I saw Jake jump in front of me and say my name a few times but everything else was a blur.

Why is she wobbling?, Holy crap!
"Rayne?! RAYNE!~" was all I could say.

I was scared. She was breathing and her heart was beating. I wonder what she's thinking.

Her heartbeat slowed down a little. It was steady. This girl, with white hair and pink fingertips, just lying there motionless sleeping without dreams.

I looked up and there were crowds of people gathering to look at Rayne...MY Rayne, the girl I love.

"GET HELP!" I found myself screaming into the crowd. Everyone started to take off their phones and I seen adults running out of the cafeteria.

I looked back down at the hopefully living girl lying in my arms and legs.

"It's going to be okay, she's gotta be already I mean..." I sniffled and I seen something wet on her face.

I was crying over my girlfriends motionless body. MOTIONLESS. That word engrained itself into my brain.

Repeating itself as if it was telling me something.

I know it's short. I haven't been sleeping right in the last few days.

I met this girl I like a lot, and I guess I'm invisible to her. I'm just invisible to the world.

I need somebody to talk to, I wanna shut the world out, but then I don't.

I guess I don't fucking know how to feel anymore.

I'm tired af and I find myself crying to myself in class.

I looked in the mirror and I look shitty as always.

My best friend is in Florida and I'm so fucking worried about her and other things.

This short chapter was actually based off my day.

I was in line for lunch and it same thing happened, I just passed out.

Good bye and thank you for your time and reading. Thank you for supporting my work.

I made a bet with my friend that if I could get 100 or more readers, than I'd be an author.

I can't believe I'm doing this but I'm trying. Just for her.