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your break up song;

finn wolfhard;

♡ Shadow by Sam Tsui
"There's nothing left of you to remind me, but somehow you're still standing behind me. I'm trying hard to forget you, but my empty walls won't let me let you go. When you took it all, you forgot your shadow. Say you wish me well without you, but something tells me that you know. When you took it all, you forgot your shadow... "

[ finn could never stop thinking about you when you broke up with him. he couldn't sleep, couldn't eat, because all he ever thought about was the hurt in his heart when you walked away from him that dreadful day. he constantly felt as if the loss of your presence was lingering over him which just made it all the more painful. ]

wyatt oleff;

♡ A Little Too Not Over You by David Archuleta
"You never cross my mind at all, that's what I tell myself. What we had is coming off, you're better off with someone else. It's for the best, I know it is, but I see you and sometimes I try to hide what I feel inside and I turn around, you're with him now. I just can't figure it out... tell me why are you so hard to forget? Don't remind me, I'm not over it. Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth, I'm just a little too not over you... "

[ wyatt struggled a lot with trying to get over you. he could force himself to move on with everyday activities, but when he found himself alone he would begin to cry, frustratedly breaking down inside because it had been so long and he still couldn't forget you and the loss you brought in his life. ]

jaeden lieberher;

♡ Hold On by Chord Overstreet
"Hold on, I still want you. Come back, I still need you. Let me take your hand, I'll make it right. I swear to love you all my life. Hold on, I still need you. "

[ jaeden fought with everything inside of him to try and make you stay, he truly did, but your mind was made up. the loss of closure broke him. his mind was constantly wrestling with the idea of having hope that you'd come back and trying desperately to realize it was over. ]

jack grazer;

♡ How Not To by Dan & Shay
"I can honestly understand why it's over. I can go through the motions of walking away. I can give you the key and take my things back. I can find plenty things to fill my days, but I don't know how not to think about you when it's late at night and quiet and I know that I ought to be the one who is strong and just moves on, but I'll probably turn down your road, knock knock on your door, fall into your arms, wake up in the morning. I'm hating myself, for the way that I can't help, the way I still want you. I just don't know how not to... "

[ jack's issue with the break up wasn't having to move on mentally and emotionally, it was having to move on physically. he found himself constantly missing your touch and how it felt to simply hug you. he wanted desperately to be able to cuddle with you and to feel your lips on his again, but he couldn't. for the first couple months of the break up, you would find him on your doorstep late at night with tears running down his cheeks and he would immediately engulf you into a hug. ]

sophia lillis;

♡ Armor by Landon Austin
"I'm not bulletproof when it comes to you. I didn't know what to say when you made me the enemy. After the war is won, there's always the next one. I'm not bulletproof when it comes to you. Maybe I'll crash into you? Maybe we'll open these wounds? We're only alive if we bruise, so I lay down this armor for you. "

[ you and sophia got into several fights before you officially broke up. both of you got pretty hurt by the words that were spat from the other's mouths each time. finally, you both gave in and ended the relationship. neither of you could stand hurting each other much more, so you thought it was best to just call it quits. sophia immediately regretted her decision with you, but it took her many months to work up the nerve to even talk to you about it because she was so scared you hadn't regretted the decision. ]

chosen jacobs;

♡ Come Wake Me Up by Rascal Flatts
"I can usually drink you right off of my mind, but I miss you tonight. I can normally push you right out of my heart, but I'm too tired to fight. Yeah, the whole thing begins and I let you sink into my veins and I feel the pain like it's new. Everything that we were, everything that you said, everything that I did and that I couldn't do, plays through tonight. Tonight your memory burns like a fire, with every one it grows higher and higher. I can't get over it, I just can't put out this love. I just sit in these flames and pray that you come back, close my eyes tightly, hold on and hope that I'm dreaming. Come wake me up... "

[ chosen was haunted by the memories of you. he tried desperately to push you out and move on, but he could never seem to get rid of the memories. he suffered for years due to how much he missed you because his mind wouldn't let him give you up. sometimes he felt as if all of this was a dream and maybe you weren't really ever there. ]

jeremy taylor;

♡ Right Here Waiting by Richard Marx
"Oceans apart, day after day, and I slowly go insane. I hear your voice on the line, but it doesn't stop the pain. If I see you next to never, then how can we stay together? Wherever you go, whatever you do, I will be right here waiting for you. Whatever it takes, or how my heart breaks, I will be right here waiting for you. I took for granted all the times that I thought would last somehow. I hear the laughter, I taste the tears, but I can't get near you now. Oh, can't you see it, baby? You got me going crazy... "

[ you and jeremy never really got into fights, but there was a huge distance gap between you two and it eventually snapped the relationship. jeremy didn't want what you guys had to be over, but the long distance became a lot more than either of you could handle. he still waited for you anyways, no matter how bad he missed you. he refused to let himself move on til' the distance was eventually broken because he knew that you were the one and he wouldn't give up. ]

nicholas hamilton;

♡ I Heard Goodbye by Dan & Shay
"I could tell by the way you kissed my lips that day. There was something missing, something not the same. You were there, but you weren't; didn't care, didn't hurt at all. Said it was what it was, that the feeling of us was gone. I watched you fade away, but I turned my head and closed my eyes and prayed instead and I told myself that it'd be fine. I wish I could have just said something. When you said you needed time, I heard goodbye. "

[ confronting your dead feelings towards nic was hard for you and harder for him. he hadn't suspected at all that you didn't feel the same way towards him anymore. you didn't want to break nic's heart, but you needed to tell him before things got too far and the possibility of cheating became real. tears slid down his cheeks as he watched you walk away and to your car, knowing that you wouldn't be back. you couldn't fall back in love, but that wouldn't stop him from hoping and praying that you would. ]

HAHA, I TOTALLY DIDN'T BREAK MY OWN HEART WHILE WRITING THIS...

THAT'S SUCH A LIE, I'M FRICKING BAWLING.