kik//ed

chapter thirty

ed was supposed to be here last week. i hadn't heard from him in over two weeks which is making me feel really horrible. i don't know why, but i saw this coming. nothing lasts forever. 

no new updates on him from the media either. it's almost like he disappeared. 

updates on me, you may ask? i'm in the hospital, even more sick. 

i've lost all my hair now. i'm very weak and have a hard time walking. they told me i have the worst cancer possible. 

i could die at any given moment. today, tomorrow, or even the next day.

and ed could care less. 

i have started to let him go. not that i want too, but because i know i'm gonna hurt him. 

i've messaged him multiple times throughout the days and weeks, but no response..

i finally decided  to text him one last time :

noahsok; look ed, i'm sorry if i've done something wrong or have mad you upset with me. i didn't mean too. i really miss you but as i can tell, you don't want to talk to me. and i've finally become okay with that. i'm dying. i'm getting worse, by the day. my medication is as high as it can go. and i really don't want to hurt you but i don't think we should be together. it's hurting me too much. and you deserve someone who can be with you for the rest of your life. because mine will be ending very soon. i love you ed. and i always will. i'll still be here as a friend or if you need to just talk. good bye ed. <3

and with that, i hit the send button and turned my phone off. 

i lay there watching tv and felt my heart break into a million tiny pieces and for once, i finally felt myself happy..

and that's when everything started turning white..

and i couldn't breathe..

i heard faint beeping..

and i finally drifted off into a deep sleep..

so sorry for the delayed update. for some reason on my computer in comp apps wasn't loading the website, so i'm using a different computer. anyways, have a good rest of the week. what's gonna happen next?!?!? xoxo