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Chapter 39

Hatred. 

Anger. 

That's all I feel inside of me right now. 

While I'm running to my house, I remember all the things she said to me. 

All the things she did. 

I always loved her, I always respected her. 

Even though she's a monster. 

Even though she never loved me.

How could she bring me to this world just to trap a guy?

And how could she make me pay all my life for this? 

How could she blame me for being born when she was the one who brought me to this world on purpose?

The one who wanted this. 

My heart is pounding. 

The closer I get to my house, the faster my heart beats. 

I can't stop remembering all the times I got hit. 

All the times she told me she didn't love me, that I was useless, 

ugly. 

All the times I was left alone in my bedroom, crying my eyes out. 

My life has been horrible because of her. 

And as if it wasn't enough, she had to bring John into our lives. 

I will never be normal. 

I'll never get to feel completely happy. 

The things they've done to me... They will always be a part of me. 

I will never be able to forget, to move on. 

I can't even let my boyfriend touch me. 

I love him with all my heart, he's the only one I trust completely on earth, yet I can't make love with him, no matter how much I try, no matter how much I want it. 

I just can't. 

And I'm not sure I will ever be capable of making this step. 

And that's all because of her. 

It has to stop. 

Today. 

Finally I've reached the gardens, hoping that for once she would be here. 

May God be with me on this. 

Just for once. 

I slammed the front door behind me trying to catch my breath, it was unlocked, which means she must be here. John being in China for weeks, it can't be him. 

And my instinct was right. 

In no time she showed up in front of me, curious to know who was visiting her. 

"What are you doing here?" She asked, disgust covering her face while she looked at me. 

"This is still my house." I stated coldly.