BLAKE

Chapter 65

Blake

I turned the TV on and waited for Liam to come back home. Safe and sound. 

Slowly, minutes turned into hours and eventually I slipped into the arms of Morpheus. 

Though I didn't hear him, Liam was asleep next to me when I woke up the next morning, my back resting against his front, his arms possessively wrapped around my waist and I exhaled in relief. 

What did he have to do all night long?
Even though I know I'm not allowed to ask him about his 'job', I can't help but wonder. 
What did that awful man ask him to do this time?
Did he threaten him once again? 
Will he ever let him go? 

Liam promised that he would leave that stupid gang as soon as possible and I trust him, I know when I look into his eyes that he's not lying to me. I'm sure that he wants to find a way out, I just hope he will succeed before it's too late... Before something happens to him once again. 
I will never forget that image of him lying almost dead on his living room, that's an image that still haunts me... Had I not come come to his house that awful day, had I not found him, he would be dead by now. And I fear that something else might happen to him.
I would not bear losing him. 

I put those horrible thoughts aside and forced myself out of bed. 
Once in the kitchen, I ate breakfast thinking about last night and I could feel my cheeks turn pink. 
We almost did it... 
If his boss hadn't called him, we would have had sex. 
I would have given myself to him. 
I was not lying when I told him that I was ready. 
I am. 
At least, I think so. 
After all, how do you know, how can you be sure that you're ready to offer yourself to the guy you love? 
Especially after what John did to me. 
It's just... I know that I love Liam, and I know that I have never felt the way I do with anyone else. I desire him. 
I have no doubt about that... The way my body reacts each time he touches me, each time he kisses me like there is no tomorrow, it leaves me wanting for more. 
And God how I thought that I would never feel this way after what happened to me... 
But Liam proved me wrong, he taught me that true love does exist, even for me. 

"Good morning Blake." I was pulled out of my thoughts by the sound of Lucie's soft voice. 

"Hey Lucie." She was still wearing her work clothes, I guess she had just come home. 

"Where's Liam?" She asked, frowning. 

"He's in his bedroom, he's still sleeping."

"Oh." I could hear the relief in her voice knowing that her son was here, safe and sound. I guess it's not easy for her either. "I was planning on going to the mall, do you want to come with me?"

"I'd love to."  

I finished eating and I put on some clothes before joining her in her car. 

"How are you doing?" She asked while driving. 

"I am fine." God it feels great to say those words and actually mean them.
Honestly Lucie is like a mother to me. I will never forget that she was willing to take care of me, even though she's working all the time. And I must admit... I'm kind of disappointed that the judge didn't allow me to live with her, even though I like Agatha, I feel closer to Lucie. 

We headed to the mall and when we arrived, I spotted a hairdresser and I decided that it was time for me to take care of myself a little. Ever since John raped me I just... I didn't care about my look anymore, all I wanted was to disappear, to blend in... But now... Now I want to feel pretty again... For me. And for Liam. 
So, while Lucie was shopping, I entered the salon and asked for a new haircut.