Camila Cabello Imagines and Oneshots

21. Her Eyes

(Okay, I'm going to be honest- I just found this poem I wrote... maybe a year ago now maybe more, and I just felt this urge to post it somewhere so let's pretend this isn't me probably-overreacting about a crush and let's pretend it's Y/n doing the same for Camila, shall we? :P)

I can't keep them straight
These games you play
Lead me astray
Deep into this maze
Don't know which way
But it's too late
To turn away
I'm lost,
Within your eyes.

Can't tell what's right or wrong
Where am I from?
What is my name?
These games,
You play.

My heart, with every pound
Slowing down
Sinking into the ground
Until there's nothing left
But silence.
And I'm at peace.
Until you wake me yet again.
My dreams are torn away
Without a trace.
I'm thrown back into this world
Where everything swirls-
Swirling thoughts,
Drowning me.
My emotions,
Drowning me.
My love for you,
Drowning me.

Until I surface
Take a breath
And after all this time,
Realise,
That it's your eyes I need a map for
And then you're gone
Out of sight,
Out of mind,
Except your not-
With every blink, a silhouette
Still drowning me
Surrounding me
Wishing you would leave me be
You're gone,
So to speak,
But you're not alone
Unlike me
And yet it seems,
No one is there for you as I would be

With time, I'll see
If you have lied to me
As I did

I fabricated a story
That was not true
And told it to you
Because I was scared of who I had become

If you have done the same
My brain
Will twist it, make it okay
But are our actions justified?
Mine are. By love,
And perhaps a little lust
But I find myself wondering,
if I'd told the truth,
Would you be in my arms?

I think I'd be okay
If even just for a day
I could get lost in those eyes again.

Or,
Would you rather keep on playing your games,
If so, I must tell you
That I now know from experience
That nobody is worth these scars,
And I know better than to mess
With somebody like
You.

Yet I am still lost,
Deep, within your eyes.