I'm Not Myself (Rochu)

Another time

2p Russia P.O.V

I watched China from afar as he took photos out of his hat, going through them with a smile on his face until the smile dropped once his eyes fell on one of the photos, he set the other photos back down in his hat without moving his eye from the photo.

He held the photo close to his chest as he looks up to the sky, his lips opened as he spoke, i can't read lips so i won't know what he said.

A single tear slid down his cheek as he closed his eyes, lowering his head back down, opening his eyes to see the photo.

Tears came rushing out like a river fall, he held the photo close to him as one of his hands fell over his mouth as he silently cried.

I watched him for a few minutes and he only cried as he began to shout.

"WHERE DID YOU GO?!" He screamed

"WHY DID YOU GO?!"

"WHY DIDN'T YOU COME BACK!"  he screamed at the river has his head lowered even more

"YOU PROMISED TO COME BACK!!"

"YOU PROMISED!!"

I made my way over to China who was so busy crying he didn't even notice me. Once I stood behind him I looked over at the photos that sat in his hat.

There were photos of him and his family...there were also photos of me when I was a child...

I wrapped my arms around his waist and hugged him from behind. He stopped crying, he quickly rubbed his eyes not wanting me to see him cry. His movements were fast as he placed the photo back in the hag before placing the hat back on.

But I saw the photo...

It was him and a man who I believe was Rome...

China is 4000 years old of course he would have had a lover before

"Is everything alright Russia aru?" he asked

"I should be the one asking," I mumbled

"I saw you cry," I said as I pressed my lips agents his neck making him shiver

"Whats wrong?" I asked

"Memories..." he replied

"I saw,"

"Did you see the photos of you when you're a child aru?" he asked as he giggled a bit

"I did, I don't think that was me," I replied

"Its still you aru, your still Russia and he are still you," China removed my arms around his waist, standing up on the edge, he was the same height as me.

"You were both so adorable!! What happened are?" He asked as he placed both of his hands on my cheeks with a smile.

His hands are hot but not too hot, it felt nice.

"I grew up," I replied

His smile turned smaller

"Yes, you both grew aru..." I could tell by his voice, he was upset that we grew up, he liked it when we're younger.

1p Russia P.O.V

I walked along the path had bloody footprints as well as some corpses of the people. A few police offers lay on the path, cold.

I don't even know why I'm following China, I barely know him...

The footprints lead me to a house, it was China's house i think why do i feel like I've been here before?

The front door was covered in blood and it was left wide open, blood painted the floors and the walls of the house.

I walked in.

Bloody handprints were found on the wall while footprints made its way to the living room.

As soon as I entered the living room China's foot slammed into my stomach making me fall back as I flinched in pain

"What are you doing here aru?" China asked as I slowly got back up

"I'm here to see you," I replied as i watch his cheeks heat up a bit

"Careful! Don't say the wrong words!" he warned as I smiled at him

"I wish my Russia aru will smile," he mumbled as he turned away

"Your Russia?" I repeated as he walked over to the garden door

"Back in the hidden world I and Russia are a thing, aren't you and China a thing?" he asked as I followed him

Wait...Hidden world?! So this isn't China!? I have meat this China before but he never spoke to me...

Alright, stay calm and I wont die!

"No, I don't even know him," I replied as China opened the door while laughing

"You don't know him!?" He repeated with a giggle

"Say how did you know me?" I asked changing the subject

He didn't reply instead he stopped where he stood, turning around to face me

"I'll show you another time~" he replied

"Those stories are for another time," he began to walk again

"Why can't you tell me now?" I asked as I followed him all the way to the bottom of the garden 

"Can you not wait aru?!" He spun around facing me with narrowed eyes

I guess he doesn't like people asking about how he meet me...

"I said I will tell you another time!! Do you not understand aru!!" He started to jab his finger into my chest as he stood on his tip toes

He looks cute when he's angry...

"Sorry, I wanted to know now," I replied with a small smile when I really want to do was push him agents the fence and-

"RUSSIA ARU!!" I jumped out of my thoughts to see China looking up at me annoyed 

"S-Sorry," I rubbed the back of my head

"Kids these days," he grumbled as he walked back into the house with me running after him like a lost puppy. 

Once I entered the house, China had gone upstairs, I could hear him moving around in his room. I walked upstairs and all the way up to China's room, I raised my hand and knocked.

"China? You're not mad at me right?" I asked as he stopped moving around 

"What makes you think that aru?" He asked as he opened his door, in his hands was a photo book.

"I thought you said that the stories are for another time?" I asked as he walked passed me and down the stairs