I'm Not Myself (Rochu)

The door

Yao P.O.V

Popping my head around the corner to find Russia was facing down on the table with bottles of vodka scattered around him.

A sigh left my lips as I shook my head. Moving over towards him, I placed a hand on top of his head, stroking his hair as he slept.

"Oh, Russia Aru, "

As I turned my attention over to the empty bottles something caught my eye. Something shiny, something smooth, something that is shown in the light. I slowly reached towards it only to be caught red-handed by Russia.

A gasp left my lips as my eye widens in shock once Russia's hand shot up, wrapping itself around my wrist.

"Don't take it away..."

"Please...this is the only thing I have left of him...please don't take it..." Russia begged while his dull purple eyes were glued onto the table while his gloved hand held the crystal protectively.

"Alright, I won't take it, " I whispered, cupping his face with my free hand, letting him lean into my touch once again he closed his eyes and fell asleep.

1p Russia P.O.V

I ran my hand through my hair as I paced around the trench.

"What are you doing?" France asked

"He's trying to make the trench even deeper than it's already is, " England replied throwing an empty can at me only for me to catch it with one of my hands.

"Nice catch, " he grinned

"I need to get back, " I spoke up, facing them

"And how the fuck are you going to do that?" America asked

"I don't know...isnt there a door that connects the two worlds together?" I asked

"Oh, would you look at that?! He wants to get everyone in his world killed!!" America laughed

"Mate, if you do that, you'll only make more chaos! In our world, our people know nothing about the other world and if they see us and Japan's people getting along they will flip!!"

"BANG!! BANG!!" England laughed

"He's right, many people will die and then there will be war, " France agreed, picking the rose petals off, letting them fall onto the floor.

"There's no going back, so make up your mind, once the door opens it stays open unless another country dies then it will close but that is if one of us dies, "

"Just so you know, you are in our Russia's body, where ever you go, your troops will go," America warned

"Fuck sake!" I spat

"This is getting harder and harder!" I narrowed my eyes at them

"Hey!! Don't blame us for what happened to the old man?!" America snapped

"Oh? If it wasn't your fault then who was it? It wasn't us!"

"Are you sure about that?" France asked

"Your friends drove the old man to his breaking point, your friends drove him to kill himself, your friends did that to him, not us!" England growled

"Oh really? What about you guys? You threatened to hurt Japan, you all agreed and you all know how he feels about letting his siblings getting hurt!" I snapped

"IT'S ALL OF OUR FAULTS!! NOW SHUT THE FUCK UP!! JAPAN's CRYING HIS EYES OUT!!" Italy yelled from the other side

"My little blossom tree is crying?!" America scrambled up and out of the trench

"I have to get back to Yao, if the door opens can you promise me that you won't cause shit?" I asked

"Well if someone pisses us off then we can't promise but other than that yeah sure, " France agreed

"Thank you, " and with that, I left to find the door.

For Yao, I will fight for you and i will find you.