I'm Not Myself (Rochu)

Lie

India P.O.V

I walked over to Russia who just woke up, holding his head as he sat up. He looked a bit better now that he had slept.

"India? What happened?" he asked

"You fell asleep," I replied

"But I was looking at a sunflower..." suddenly his eyes widen

"Wheres my scarf!" he asked

"Don't worry, I'm having it washed for you just like the rest of your clothes you were in for 5 weeks," I replied with a smile as he relaxed

"How did I fall asleep?" he asked

"I had a friend to do the job," I smiled at him as a knock came to the door, I got up and walked to the door

Russia P.O.V

I watched India open the door, his body blocked the person who was at the door not letting me see who they were, they handed him a tray before leaving.

"Who was that?" I asked as he closed the door and placed the tray down on the table

"A friend," he replied

"You have a lot of friends that I don't know," I mumbled

"Well that's because I talk to people," he waved a bowl of soup in front of me

"I don't want it," I said as I pushed it away earning a sigh from him

"Try it," he tried again

"Why? China didn't make it! I want to eat China's cooking!" I cried

India P.O.V

This kid is going to be the end of me! I swear if he doesn't eat and if he's going to act like a child I will force this down his throat!

"A friend made and you never tried it how would you know it bad or not?" I asked

"But-"

"And you haven't eaten anything since China died all you drank was vodka!" I pushed the bowl of soup in front of him again

"Drink it or I will make sure you won't drink vodka every again!" I threatened as I was losing my cool

"Fine," he took the bowl and took a sip

His eyes lit up before drinking it all down, I sat there was a smirk on while he finished it, I took the bowl and a knock came to the door again.

Russia P.O.V

It tastes just like China's cooking!!

Oh here's the knock again and once again India blocked my view of the person

"Who is your friend?" I asked as he closed the door

"Why do you need to know?" he asked

"I want to say thank you,"

"I've done that for you,"

"Why can't I see them? I want to say thank you, myself,"  I slowly got up but he stopped me by pushing me back down 

"They're busy," he simply said 

"Your hiding something from me,"

"No, I'm not!" 

"Yes, you are if you're not then why can't I see them?" i asked

"You need to rest!" 

"India!" I growled he sighed and slowly got up, opening the door, running out before locking me in my room

"Hey!" 

"Rest, Russia," he called out

"What seems to be the problem?" 

"He wants to see you and..."

whisper 

"Do you want me to..."

whisper 

"That would be the best," 

"I'll go and get it," 

"India!" I called out to him, the door nob slowly turned.

click 

the door opened and I sprinted out but India tripped me over, I fell flat on my face 

"I'm sorry Russia," he said 

India P.O.V

They jumped onto Russia's back

"Hey!! Who there!!" Russia yelled as he struggled to get them off his back, they held the needle up high before plunging it into his neck, his eyes closed as he fell asleep again...

"Are you sure it won't hurt him?" I asked 

"Don't worry, there nothing in the needle," the replied

"But then how did you get him to sleep?" I asked 

"I went for a nerve that sends him to sleep, don't worry there are no side effects," they flashed me a small smile before getting off Russia, throwing one of his arms over their shoulder, carrying Russia back into his room, tucking him in bed, they cupped his cheek before walking out of the room.

"I want to say thank you for helping me out," I thanked them 

"Don't worry about it," they smiled as they turned around

"I'm sorry for reminding you," I frowned 

they froze

"D-Don't worry about it..." their voice became watery as their eyes watered as they turned around facing me, their hood covered their eyes as their head hung low

"I-I'm so sorry! I-I d-"

"It's fine, its...good to see him again...even if they aren't the same person...I like to think he's still here.." they gave me a small smile

"But isn't that lying to yourself?" I asked 

"I lie alot," they smiled before walking back into the kitchen