The Introvert Out In The World || [A Tagalog and English Story] [TagLish]

Chapter 4

Author's Note: 

I almost died just now... huhuhu~ my laptop started making beeping noises and was static-ing.. or however you spell it. And it wouldn't turn on. I was so sad... because I was updating this. I thought I had to reset the laptop. 

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CHAPTER 4

He bent down and purposely closed in. I couldn’t help but feel kind of scared. But, he kissed my cheek again. This time, alam kong wala talagang meaning ang mga galaw niya. He made it clear na rin sa akin na hinding hindi siya mag-kakagusto sa taong tulad ko. That’s why, it’s clear for me that he’ll never have feelings for me. Tanggap ko naman yun eh.

Napatanong nanaman ako sa sarili ko kung ano ba talaga ako, kung may problem ba. Sa pagkakaalam ko, wala naman. Napaisip lang naman ako ng konte, nang na realize ko na iba talaga ako sa paningin niya. Hindi ako katulad ng mga babaeng laging naka buntot sa kanya. Minsan lang ako mahilig lumabas at makipag date sa mga kabarkada ko.

Kung sa classroom naman, I barely talk to anyone. It’s not that I’m shy. It’s just that I think it’s too bothersome to talk and I just want to be alone. Mas gusto ko talagang mapag-isa ako most of the time.

Kaya bago ko binalewala ang beso niya, pinagisipan ko na rin kung bakit gumagaan luob ko sa kanya.  

Pero umiwas pa rin ako. “What are you doing, Daniel? Stop with that, okay?” I sincerely asked.

“It just felt like you were asking for a kiss, that’s why I just went with the mood.” He proudly said it.

Nag bitaw ako ng malaking hininga at pinikit mga mata ko. Nung binuksan ko, nakatitig nalang ako sa mga mata niya. Shet ka, Daniel.

“You know what, Daniel? I loved working as a nanny to the twins, and I loved working with Dane and your father too. Your family is great. They’re treating me well, respectfully, and what else… But you on the other hand…” Feeling ko mauubusan ako ng English sa kaka-explain sa kanya, pero kinaya ko.

I shook my head along with the words I told him. “… am disappointed. You have your looks, yes. Any girl, desperate enough, would want you. But not me. Yes, I like you, but I don’t love you, Daniel.”

Then I seriously looked at him in the eye. “You should remember that there’s a fine line between being a nice guy and being an asshole, and a fine line between infatuation and love. I just THINK that I like you. That’s all.”

Nagmadali na akong  umalis sa bahay nila. Iniwan kong nakatulala, at hindi mabasa ang expression niya. Papaalis na ako sa gate, at lumingon ako sa rear-view mirror, and I saw Dash outside the house. He might have screamed and Daniel hushed him. But, I saw him run back to his house.

Na-guilty tuloy ako. Tama ba yung mga sinabi ko sa kanya? Sumama lang naman luob ko dahil sa ginawa niya sa akin kanina sa school at ngayon. Natakot na naman ako.

I continued driving along the narrow road in the area when my phone rang. I quickly connected it through my AUX.

“Hi.” I greeted.

“Kaitlyn.” Dane’s deep voice bellowed in my car. My heart started beating so fast that I forgot to say anything back. “Kaitlyn?” He asked this time.

“Oh. Uhh. Yeah, I’m here. Sorry.”

He chuckled so low. He actually laughed. “You’re driving I presume? Drop by my office before you go home. Dash called me a while ago. We’ll need to talk about things. See you.”