Broken Love [COMPLETED BUT EDITING]

Chapter 15: The heart ache

Raj and Prem are brothers, Raj being 16 and Prem being 15. 

They attend the same temple as me. 

Well, Raj never talked to me. But when I was younger I thought I was in love with him. And I still think that. Prem and I became friends a few years ago when he found out how I felt about his brother.

We became best friends, or so I thought. He always defended me. Stood by me when no one else did. I held no secrets from him. But I was always afraid he didn't feel the same friendship for me. But I remember when I was mad at Vanessa, Prem wanted nothing more than to smack her. He had been so sweet. 

But he was a year older at a different school. Our parents didn't know we were friends. We only saw each other at temple so we weren't really allowed to mingle. We drifted apart or so I thought.

The truth is, I wanted Raj to like me desperately. And Prem was no help. They both pissed me off so I ignored both.

One day I decided to text Prem. It was the same day I asked James what were we. 

M- hey

P- hey long time no see

M- hows life

P- not bad u

M- I got a mans..well almost

P- good girl. but what guy wants such an ugly

M- ur stupid

Our conversation was our typical banter...until

M- oh plz ur bro is wayyyy cuter

P- my mom and grandma all say I'm better than him. even he admitted it

M- ok sure mr. bullier of girls

P- I'm mean until I'm nice. once I'm nice it means I like the girl. but once I get bored I dump her

M- ur a fuck boi

P- thats what ppl say

M- thats not a compliment

P- what exactly is a fuck boi?

M- r u serious?

P- yea

M- sit down son. imma tell u a story

P- lmfao ok buddy

M- ew I sound like ur son

P- lol

M- anywyas a fuck boy is a guy who plays with a girl's feelings just to have sex with them. once thats done or they get bored the boy moves on to his next victim

P- close buy I don't have sex with them

M- thats terrible bro. ur momma raise u better

P- its true tho. girls do anything to get a guy to like them and its sad. they tell u all their secrets n then we go back n tell our entire sophomore crew

M- thats fukcing sad but makes sense

P- now u know the secret

M- yes I do. sophs r all asses

P- u saying that bc none of em want u

M- I've rejected guys b4

P- oh please. They reject u. don't make me name any. 

M- u dont kno any

P- number 1= my bro

M- what

P- he knos

M- WHO TOLD HIM

P- not my problem. I aint ratting out anyone

M- y not

P- I'm not ratting out anyone I care bout

M- bro just tell me

P- its not like a give a shit bout u any way

M- I don't give a damn bout u so its fine 

P- im bored now

M- bye

I broke down in tears. I was so angry. He was supposed to care. He was supposed to be a friend. But he didn't care. How could he say he didn't when he said so himself? He said no one coulda harm me. So how come he ended up doing just that?

When I had no one he was supposed to be there. He was like a brother to me. He knew about my trust issues. He knew about every jerk who hurt me. WHY WAS HE SUCH A JERK?

I was sitting in the living room staring at the tv when my cousin walked in. 

"You ok cuz?"

"Remember Prem?"

"Mhmm"

I ranted the whole story to her. My cousin said, "It's obvious he likes you and got pissed off because you don't feel the same."

"maybe. I'm done with him."